zenasavvy's Journal

weight gain
Nov 13 2008 19:43

Thanks for the comments and support :)

I haven't weighed lately--I am scared to weigh in--I know I have gained...I can tell by the way my clothes fit.

I am trying to get back on track...this after I ate a whole bag of sea salt and cracked pepper kettle chips the other day....

Gone for a long time
Nov 09 2008 14:34

Hmm ..Hi ..to any of my friends still on here and tuning in to my journals.. not a long list but cherished peeps just the same.

I have learned a lot about myself in my absence. 

I don't do so well without logging...without being responsible for my actions

I know what it is to try to jump on the wagon and just start to adjust my seat to get comfy only to fall off.........hard

I have come to a realization--how much money I have thumbed my nose at by thinking I only had to do my required shifts...and not the extras

I still miss my son....I am still unhappy in my relationship...although I have come to realize that losing both is probably more my fault than anyone elses

I have decided that once a relationship is trashed is is probably better to walk away sorry than try like hell to save it....at least my partner should walk away........rather than wait for me to save it single-handedly

I have listened to many of you (read many of your writings) and realize some of you are so very very strong and I am proud of you and hope one day to be as strong and sincere

I have regained a part of myself that is confident in my friendships (real time) and I have had the opportunity to get much closer with my Dad

I have not counted any calories, worked out, etc, and managed to not regain my weight...well maybe 5 pounds

I miss the diligence I found although at the time I thought it obsessive--the logging the reading of the posts...but thi9s site is awesome and very helpful!!

I long to get back on a routine as I did in March of this year..

I want to lose 25 more pounds and be fit.

Hugs to all.

Z

Gainer
Nov 07 2008 19:28

I am the goner..th gainer...among    us

Can't go on handle it ..the shame..............love you all

but losing faith in self....

Oct 16 2008 13:49

http://www.figureathlete.com/free_online_article/training/th e_final_nail_in_the_cardio_coffin

Oct 12 2008 10:33

I don't know what to do...My back hurts so much I can barely walk ...I called in yesterday and now will have to call in today...I need to work need the money but can't possibly do it...omg what am I going to do?

Oct 11 2008 07:49

anyone there?

Oct 10 2008 12:19

No vodka yesterday.   Still cranky today.  Roomie has one day off/week and today she is going to her mom's.  I need to go pay for my plates on the RAV.

Tonight I am calling my friend/co-worker Patty and ask her if the offer is still open to share the apt on my work weekends.. I need to start raking in the cash, save miles on car, save gas and avoid home...............  Hopefully I can dig my way out of the financial mess by the end of the year...and then the end of March.  About her house---mtg...I dunno about that

Oct 09 2008 20:12

I could easily drink a pint of vodka tonight...IF I had one...but roomie will be home in 15 min...and that would go over like a lead balloon so I guess I will do without ...pisses me off really   REALLY

made payment arrangements with IRS...sucks   retirement acct in the toilet...sucks.....oH WELL..shouldn't be feeling sorry for myself...just don't wanna work work work work work work and never play....

Oct 09 2008 17:45

Stock market----------seriously bleeding

Oct 07 2008 18:35

I did think about going to CVS today to buy a cheap bottle of vodka -but only briefly and I did not do it  :)  

I stayed on the couch today though-did not work out--DID NOT even shower yuck  lol

My back has been hurting all day--could not stand up straight earlier in the day--must have aggravated it by sleeping crooked or twisted or something..

Heating pad feels so good--800 mg of ibuprofen helps.  Gonna watch the debate in 2.5 hours.

I have eaten 1360 cal..that leaves nothing for me to eat for dinner ..  hmmmmm I guess some carrots....

Subway sure sounds good though