monie8401's Journal

1445 today
Oct 12 2008 00:02

So, I kept within the stated goal of 1500/day. For some reason I feel guilty if I go above 1200, even though I know that's not enough calories for me at this weight. I want to lose weight at a healthy rate. It's just- the guilt about eating is constantly there for me.

I think about food all the time, and want to eat constantly. It's better if I am out and doing other things- if I am around the house, it's generally even worse except for directly after i've had a meal.

Anyway, so it's a vicious cycle: i think about eating, i eat, then i obsess about eating too much and feel guilt about what i have consumed. there are a lot of emotional issues wrapped up in food for me, that much is clear.

to be continued...