future_tadddei's Journal

Fat, Grouchy and Overwhelmed
Oct 12 2008 09:29

Yeah, I think that describes me fairly well the past few days.

I am no longer losing weight, I'm gaining.  I'm up at 185/186 and I don't really know what I'm doing wrong.  I figure the 1,500 calorie diet and three workouts a week would do something, but I guess not.  I did have a cheeseburger and fries yesterday because I was forced to eat on the run.  Must have been a really heavy cheeseburger.

I am in a terrible mood too.  Mostly I'm mad because I'm fat and overwhelmed.  I feel seriously sorry for anyone who has to be around me lately.

I think stress is getting the best of me.  I feel so much pressure with so much on my plate right now.  Work, school, homework, wedding planning, meal planning, making time for exercise, cleaning, packing for our move, and several extracurricular trips to the dentist because I'm an idiot -- there isn't enough time in the day.  Not to mention the added stress of working at a small business that is having serious financial problems because of the credit hold; I spend every day figuring out if we have enough money to open the next day.  I am probably on the verge of tears 75% of the time.

I would just like the weight loss to go smoothly.  There is no possible way I can do more than what I am doing.  WHY AM I GAINING?  AAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!