floridanaturegirl's Journal

Hello Everyone. I'm Reeni.
Oct 11 2008 13:14

My first day here and I could sure use some help.  I am a 44 year old single female.  A few years ago my weight was 311 #; the most I have ever weighed.  About a month ago or so I was the lowest weight I've ever been since those 311 #.  I was down to 222.  That's a weight loss of 89 #.  I don't know what my motivation was and I don't care.  All I know is that it's gone  and I don't know how to get it back.  I'm so scared that I might gain all that weight back again.  In about a month or so I have gained 8 # and I'm terrified that I'm at the beginning of a downward spiral and I never want to be back to that starting weight again.  I am now back up to 230 # and am eating any & everything.  I am a big time carboholic.  I love any and all pastries, cake, cookies, candy, soda, ice cream, pasta, pizza, etc... I don't know how to get back whatever it was that was keeping me going.  I feel like Caloriecount may help.  There's alot to take in but as I'm going over everything, I'm getting excited and feel like this could help.  I don't know what my motivation was or where it went but I do know that I have to find some way to get it back and I need all the help I can get.  I really need to get down to 165.