candilovesjon's Journal

O.K. I have to start over!
Oct 15 2008 21:35

I am disappointed with myself! I worked so hard and lost I lost 19.4lbs and only had 15lbs to go to get to my first goal weight,then my step-father died!! I am back up to 182 so now I have 20lbs to get to my pre-pregnancy weight! I hate that I have not been watching what I eat and even if the thought of how un-healthy it was crossed my mind I would think I don't have time right now! well I'm getting back on track I've been drinking pop eating crap but starting now I am going to be more cautious and diligent in my weight loss! I need to lose 18lbs by Christmas there are 10 weeks til Christmas so I am going to be very dedicated and lose this weight! for myself and my husband! I feel like he deserves a beautiful wife.he says I Am but still I want to feel like I am. I look at pictures of me before I got pregnant and get so mad at myself for letting me get this big! OH,WELL! I can't keep dwelling in the past I must start focusing on now and moving forward! I will do this! With the Lord's help and strength I will get through this at least 18lbs lighter! PRAISE THE LORD!!!! WHAT A MIGHTY GOD WE SERVE!!!!!