Changing my profile to match where I am at now:

After many years of struggling with bingeing and purging (many meaning about 13 years), I started down the path of nature.

Now, this is a different approach than anything I had tried previously. Before, I was very successful in suppressing my appetites and tricking myself with diet products and lowfat and sugarfree food stuffs. Low calorie was my ultimate goal. Though I no longer engaged in eating disorder behaviors, the urges were still there. The cravings were still there. 

So, I started reading books by Jordan Rubin, author of The Maker's Diet and Patient, Heal Thyself. His take on things is that humans must connect with God again and eat Biblically to be healthy. Doing this, he cured himself from Crohn's disease. The diet emphasized spelt, quinoa, whole grains, organic beef and buffalo, organic fruits and veggies and raw milk and raw dairy. He also emphasized fermented and cultured foods like yogurt, kefir, miso, sauerkraut, etc. I started eating this way and did pretty well, though I still had the occasional week-long deviation into bakery goods (I'm a cake decorator) and overall shit-tastic eating.

In his new book, Jordan reccomends going on a quarterly fast; it's a 10-day fast every three months to re-purify and detoxify the body. I attemped the winter fast in the winter, which pretty much is to eat cleansing chicken soup every three hours. After two days, I never wanted to even look at that chicken soup again.

So, in early spring, I tried the summer fast, which was pretty much raw fruits and vegetables, then a slow transition back to fish and dairy and nuts and meat at the end. I did it, and felt wonderful. Transitioned back to cooked foods and meat and dairy, and slowly all of my cravings came back. I all of the sudden found myself fighting against the same urges I had felt before the fast. That made me think: maybe it's not me, it's the food?

That went agains everything I had thought about my eating disorder. I had always repeated the mantra, 'it's not about the food.' But it is! It really, really is!

So, I've been eating an entirely raw vegan diet, and the main thing I notice is the fact that I have absolutely no cravings for anything bad for me, AND I am completely free from the urges and thoughts I had before. My husband won't let me come off the diet because he says I'm more positive and energetic than I've ever been. I feel releif, like I have been freed from my disorders completely.

I don't know if I will stay this way, but at the moment I don't see a reason to go back. I'm completely unconcerned with calories, I feel satiated and actually know when to stop eating instead of forcing myself, and I'm not constantly haunted by cravings. So, at the moment, I don't see a reason to stop.