I am a senior in college suffering from binge eating disorder which makes life pure hell sometimes. I believe I have an addiction to food and I need to find a way to break free. I've gained about 30 pounds in the past year. I would like to possibly lose 20 of it. I've always been self-conscious of my body. I sometimes fear that I will spend the rest of my life like this and never be completely happy. I've been on a variety of anti-depressants but I don't believe any have truly worked for me. I just want to develop a healthy relationship with food and not have it run my life.