a long long history, some issues with food, namely anorexia then massive compulsive overexercising with anorexia, hospitalised and subsequent binging (most horrible of all)....OCD and so depression resulted from all this. trying to get structure and consistancy on my life starting with a stupid flippin meal plan (i feel so stupid). i am desperate to feel better about how i look.....really value the opinions and responses from the CC people! thanks