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| #181 | lizzlebizzle |
Oct 07 2006 18:17 |
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jenne, hang in there...try to keep your head on straight and a stiff upper lip. It's good that you're talking with your therapist during such a hard time!
I've been thinking about scheduling an appointment with my therapist, but I keep thinking, "it's not so bad." Then night time will hit and I'll wonder why I haven't called her yet... I was VERY close to binging last night. I was at my best friend's house and I wanted something sweet. She gave me a dark chocolate Godiva bar (250 cals). It was SO good...and I wanted cookies after that...but somehow I managed to stop, and ended up with 1599 calories for yesterday. Today I'm having 1500 calories, hopefully. I'm hoping I don't binge. I still feel out of control for some reason. I decided to have two bowls of cereal this morning because I feel so hungry! What's the DEAL? Argh. *yawns* Grumble. |
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| #182 |  ejf276-5 |
Oct 09 2006 03:11 |
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I suffered from bulimia during my late high school/early college years until I sought therapy due to the fact that my mother had found me out. Since that time, I?ve continued to struggle with the bulimic tendency of binge eating. All of you are right--it is an eating disorder. I struggle with binge eating every single day. I have to be able to count the calories of what I?m eating, otherwise it sends me off and makes me crazy. I figure that if I have no idea how many calories I?ve eaten, I might as well go ahead and blow it some more. I have counted calories at least since I was 14 years old--so well over 15 years now. The only time that I can remember NOT being on a diet or counting calories was when I was pregnant with our twins and during the year that I nursed them. Counting calories is me being in control. I am an emotion/stress bottler. In the past, I haven?t liked to show my emotions of sadness or anger because I thought it made me look weak. I carry my stress in my left shoulder muscles--which causes quite a bit of pain and discomfort. My binges happen during emotional or stressful times. Life, in general, is a huge stresser for me. As a teacher, my job is demanding--I worry about my students, pacing guides, meeting standards, papers to check, grades to report, seminars to plan, assessments to give, large classrooom sizes--the list could go on and on. The rest of my life is stressful too--being a mother of twins, a wife, having household responsibilities, working an opposite shift than my husband, etc. Depending upon my stress levels, my time between binges can widely vary. My heart goes out to all of you! |
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| #183 | united2gether |
Oct 09 2006 06:38 |
| #184 | kalkette |
Oct 09 2006 17:27 |
| Well, I'm back from my trip. I think I did okay. At almost every meal i was able to stop myself when I was satisfied instead of continuing to eat. I got to try Indian Food. which was interesting, but kinda upset my stomach because very spicy. I liked it though. I would definately eat it again. I think I over did it on the sodium though because I am at the same weight today as I was on Friday and I have not drunk nearly enough water. (I have been at work since 7:30 and it's now 11:30 and I haven't had to go to the bathroom once!) With all the movement (walking lots of places and dancing a ton at the wedding) I was hoping for a drop so I'm gonna get my water in and then it should be good. :) No bingeing! I can do this and so can all of you! | ||
| #185 | united2gether |
Oct 09 2006 19:53 |
| #186 | kit10 |
Oct 09 2006 20:39 |
| I totaly admitt i'm a huge binge eater, i've aquired this habit from this summer when i would work long hours and not be able to east so i'd get home and go nuts for food cause i figured that since i didn't eat all day that i can eat whatever i want now... well now it's become a huge problem cause i binge all teh time now. Whenever i get home it's a habit i've got to eat something and at night even if i go down stairs i'm most likely to end up eating somehthing. and if i go anywhere near the kitchen during the day i'll be pulled in to eat something. I lost alot of weight a year ago now i've put back on about 1/2 of it just because i've started binging! i ahve a wedding to attend soon and i feel gross looking in th mirror. I need some suppoort from my family but they all like to eat and i'd just learn bad habits from them. and i think i eat cause i'm bored and tired, it's like i have nothing else to do so why don't i eat. and i never want to do anything other than eat... wow i wrote alot | ||
| #187 | lilmissdixiechick |
Oct 10 2006 02:31 |
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I am a total binger!!!!! and have been for years. I have compulsive habits left right and centre, but food has always been the solace for me. I'm so bad that i will go to supermarket after supermarket after supermarket, i eat food that's not even mine but the people with whom i share my house and then i have to replace it, i try to be sneaky and hope they won't notice but i'm sure they do. like today i have pogged out on all this cereal - like 5/6 bowls , made myself some porridge even and had crackers am full but still feel hungry. must've had bout 3/4000 cals, it's not even worth counting now. i feel glum and low fat and futile. am going to try and go to the gym shortly though, walk there and do a couple of classes just to make me feel bette.
i have been batttling this for bout 16/17 years - at least and never really known it, just thought i was a fat pog. but over the last few years i have gradually been/gone about changing my life, my directions and influences and my knowledge has grown in many levels and especially regarding my relationships - with myself, my family, my friends, my lovers and of course with my nemesis: FOOD! Sometimes i lose hours of my life because of food, what with the seeking it out and then consuming it. i feel really ashamed of myself and my actions. when sometimes i will greedily consume food and others are blatanly starving - and not through choice!! It makes me feel even more selfish and f***ed in the head. Among my circle of close friends is a woman who has battled anorexia, the recognised eating disorder so i feel that my struggles have been less as it's not "lifethreatening" in the way that can see a skeletal frame and emaciated hollowed out cheeks and sockets of eyes. However I have been, and still more often than not, feel like the little girl who is lost/hiding /close to being smothered/suffocated by the food i consume (so as to disconnect from my feelings as i have never known how to deal with them) and that food turns into the fat which to me feels like a bulky stupid costume that i have been made to dress up in and parade around the town in and face the stares from the townsfolk whilst they snigger and taunt. I see fellow "fatties" and my heart goes out to all. I see further, beyond the chins, the jowls, the big boobs , the rolls of flesh that double(ha get it) as stomachs and i see the eyes of the little girl who's trapped, trying to break free and shed this skin of protective padding that even though has worn her down for years has shown little signs of it growing threadbare. And through my empathy i wonder what her story is and want to help because f*** it's hard, thinking about food all the time, when to get , how /where to get it, eating it and then punishing oneself thru the aftermath and the cycle then repeating. I am on my third day of going over my allowance and i feel like a bag of sh**! but with y'all out there that struggle with the same issues is comforting - in the sense that maybe we can help each other kick these issues to the curb!! Thankyou for letting me rant. P.S By no means do i think that it's only women or "fatties" that have BED. |
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| #188 | rdlm1000 |
Oct 10 2006 05:52 |
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So today marks 2 weeks binge free. I've had days where I've eaten over my calories, but no binges and if I conqure the binges I know I'll be fine. I hope it continues, I feel like it's a struggle everyday.
Good luck everyone. I know we can all do it. It's in our minds and we have to adjust our thinking. Everytime I feel the urge to binge, I google binge eating disorder. Just reading about it makes me want to stop. I also commited to logging everything I eat. I had a fried twinkie on Sun and I logged it. It makes me take responsibillity. My binges are always so private and I try to forget and make excuses. By knowing I will log everything, I think twice, because I don't want to see a 5000 cal day. |
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| #189 | shiguresflower |
Oct 10 2006 06:10 |
| umm, hi everyone. *waves* My problem isn't so much eating too much; i stay within my cals range but i eat a lot of it in a short amount if time. I know you should never eat more than 500-600 cals in one sitting because the body has to have time to absord it, but i can eat like 700 cals in one hour! How bad is this for a body? How should i space out the cals? | ||
| #190 | lizzlebizzle |
Oct 11 2006 01:37 |
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Wow, great job, rdlm!!! That's awesome.
Just checking in after this bad weekend...3rd binge-free day! |
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| #191 | xuraiya |
Oct 11 2006 03:56 |
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yeah, rdlm 1000, I totally know what you mean about logging to take responsability. Sometimes it can be the difference between going 1000 calories over to being 3234293432095834095 calories over. And every one of those calories over is one you're only going to have to make up later.
Shiguresflower, what time of day are you eating all of this? lunch? afternoon snack? dinner? after dinner? Yay, lizzle! I actually had a good weekend (what a rarity in a binging existence!!!), so I'm on day 4 *crosses fingers*, and hopefully this trend is here to stay. |
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| #192 | tinytot |
Oct 11 2006 04:08 |
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| #193 | shiguresflower |
Oct 11 2006 04:44 |
| Well i eat it after dinner. Basically i'm scared i won't meet my daily cals or figure that i can afford it (which i can) but i still end up feeling uncomfortably full. is it better to come in under for the day or "over eat" to meet requirements? | ||
| #194 | united2gether |
Oct 11 2006 09:30 |
| #195 | jennelaw |
Oct 11 2006 14:54 |
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Checking back in, guys...thanks for the encouragement and thoughts and prayers.
Things are still unknown with the medical stuff but my therapist was right - I need to get a grip. I still can't hold down a lot of food from the stress and I think this is the first time I can remember that I'm not completely stress eating. Good news is, the four pounds from the Melting Pot went away (definitely sodium retention!) and I'm down two. I'm still off my goal for this month, but I'm finally back to moving in the right direction. I'm actually not eating enough right now since I know that it won't stay down very well and I'm trying to do better today with stuff like oatmeal, etc. that are easy on the tummy. You guys are all awesome! Keep hanging in there!!!! |
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| #196 | spunk |
Oct 12 2006 07:11 |
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i really didnt feel comfortable posting any comment on this thread, but i needed to speak of this problem more than ever now. It began as something i thought was occasional, and that i had control of. Im only a teenager, but i suffer from binging as well. I cant help it. I cannot even describe the overwhelming urge that overcomes me. People speak of smoking, and addictions as being detrimental to one's health, but i dont think this is any better. There are times whem i do cry afterwards.... primarly due to l regeret of poor decisions made when it could easily have been avoided. Hopefully this can be overcome one day. And hopefully soon. Thank you for listening... |
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| #197 | united2gether |
Oct 12 2006 07:29 |
| #198 | gr8games |
Oct 13 2006 05:43 |
| I think breaking the binge is the hardest part. I'm never quite sure how to really stop. It seems like I have to find the right frame of mind and that's the hard part because emotions and stress usually trigger my binges. So this week has been particularly tough. :::sigh::: | ||
| #199 | lizzlebizzle |
Oct 13 2006 13:29 |
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*hugs united* Don't worry, girlie. The hardest thing to do is break the binge, you're right. It's a feedback loop that keeps perpetuating itself. But read what you wrote -- this week has been particularly tough. And that's okay! So, let's get back on track next week. Or today. Breaking that cycle one day earlier is a good start. :) You're doing great.
Today's my.....6th binge-free day! Whoa. That's cool. I think Thursdays are the hardest for me, and yesterday was no exception. It's the end of the week and also my official weigh-in. Definitely the day that's furthest away from next week's weigh-in, so I always feel like I should treat myself or something. :-\ Instead of binging, I had two pieces of chocolate that I hadn't planned (100 calories). I was SO close, but I didn't want to give in. So I didn't! Let's hope the rest of this weekend goes well. My goal is to not binge, and plan a maintenance day if I need to. "Plan" is the key word here: no frantic cupboard searches or trips to the grocery store. There. Happy Friday the 13th everyone! lizzle |
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| #200 | jenniferger |
Oct 13 2006 15:42 |
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What I don't get is where I put all the food. If one's stomach is the size of a fist, and I gobble down an entire 12 inch pizza, with a large salad, a large coke, and an entire package of oreos, where the heck is it going? I have the hugest appetite of anyone I know...it's almost like I need abnormal amounts of food to feel satisfied. What causes this? Does anyone else feel like they can't enough sometimes? Can anyone shed any light on severe bingeing? And why do I eat so darn fast? It's like I want to gobble everything I see as rapidly as I can and I don't want to be interupted. In fact, I usually prefer eating alone just so I can be a pig. It's like alcoholic behavior and it's something I'm trying very hard to stop doing. Can anyone relate? |
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