Health & Support

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

Oh, and thanks insecureteen for the comment! I wish I would have read that yesterday, it would have made me feel much less like crappityness. :D

I look back and it was pretty healthy compared to what I could have done. I almost always binge on "healthy" foods because in my subconscious I'm using their health benefits as an excuse to binge on them. A lot of the time I consume more calories than people would binging on junk food, I just get the worse stomach ache that lasts a lot longer and keeps me feeling awful about myself which in turn causes MORE binging. Bad, bad cycle.

hey well does anyone noe why i feel like no one can help me? no matter how rotten i feel after binging, i tend to plan to binge the next day and look forward to eating.

I feel so addicted to food yet regretting this coz i was once skinny and able to control my cravings. now i get diarrhoea everyday and i went into hospital for laxative overdose!

I feel so helpless like i'm turning away from God and the counsellors that are trying to help me coz i still enjoy binging at the back of my mind.

the holidays have made me gain so much weight that i can't even fit into my old pants...argh

I had a very bad day....I dont know if it would be considered a binge because I ate it throughtout the whole day.

-2 bowls of special K and yogurt (300)
-crispy minis (80)
-peanut butter (a little here and there probably added up to 500ish)
-rice cake (60)
-2 power bars (450)
-crispy delights (90)
-2 pieces of toast with mustard and ham (350)
-more cereal dry (180)
-some peanuts (200)
-2 cookies (210)

and probably more I just forgot I probably ended up having 2400-2500 calories today.

my name is Chris and I am a binger. I feel desperate about it. I exercise everyday..understand/count my calories...and then it is like I am possessed. I don't knwo what to do. I am going to counseling - but when I am alone it feels like this "evil" twin comes and I just binge and binge...like a drug addict.There is a disconnect from what I ant & work for to what I do when I binge... I wish I could go away somewhere and get down to a healthy weight & get this monster under control but I cant'' afford a health spa. Please...anyone..help. I want to look good but at 170 and 5'2'' I need to losae 50 pounds. I need some help to get this "monster" inside undercontrol. Please email back.

Hi everyone, my name is Sarah and I am a binger...

but I have a concern. For the last several months I have been working on my binging and, thank GOD!, coming ot the root of the problem and making TONS of progress - all of which I don't  want ot lose. One issue, though, last time I was this close to shaking the awful habit, I purposely regressed - why? Out of fear of losing hte gym. You see, I am also addicted to the gym, and I use it to keep the weight under control after a binge or in anticipation of one, "just in case." But I LOVE working out, and when I am in recovery I am just not hungry for enough calories to workout. This site says my absolute BMR is 1415, but eating that much when I'm not binging is really hard to do - and then eating more so I can workout just seems impossible! (During binging days I typically consume 1800-1900 on non-binge days and over 3 or 4000 on binge days, so this number sounds really low to me, too)

So my question is this: how do I not lose all the hard work I have put into becoming fit, as in able to lift heavy weights, do lots of crunches, and do an hour or more of intense cardio and have it all feel like nothing? I don't want to become unfit, but I also don't want to starve myself by working off all the calories I am eating. This is a dilemma - can anyone help me? THanks so much. And good luck to everyone overcoming BED! It is TOUGH!

One tip I have learned, however, through experience, of course - completely eliminating sugar really helps in overcoming binges. Trust me, I was skeptical forever, too, but it seriously helps. I'm talking, no more ketchup, no more Total cereal or Rice Krispies or Special K or english muffins or bread with sugar (whichis just about every bread) Anything but plain yogurt, sweetened applesauce - anything with sugar. Eliminate it! Try it for one week (that's what I was forced to do on vacation, and I noticed I was feeling awesome and had no desire ot binge at all!) So try it. It might help :)

I did okay today...got back on track after yesterday....this is what I ate today, although i could have had more healthy things and cut out the skinny cows (soooo hot today here 33 degrees)

oatmeal-180
skinny cow fudgsicle-70
2 rice cakes-80
can of tuna-150
yogurt-90
a few chips-150
special k dry-220
2 cookies-110
skinny cow icecream sandwhich-100
mini carrots-70
special k bar-90
sandwich-200

so my total for today is 1510 :) and I drank tons and tons of water today i drank about 4200 mL of it.

I felt like I was going to binge 2 times today (I was home all day) but somehow I found it in me to stay in control. I just kept thinking whats really more important? The taste of food in your mouth for a couple of seconds before it goes into your stomach? or the way your going to look in a bikini? haha and I got through it.

ps. mikeiscool...just something I have been wondering for a while, female? male?

male. probably the only one on here :)

Hello. My name is Julia. I binge. Uncontrollably. My mom got mad at me for using the word binge around her. So now I have to act all fake and say everything's fine. When all I want to do is cry all the time. Instead, i just eat, sleep, and think about eating. I'm an emotional binger. Today I had about 3700 calories, that's with not eating until 4pm. Same thing yesterday.
I want to get better. This is a sickness. Real, painful, an addiction to food. And the worst thing about it: some addictions can be cut off, cold turkey. Sure, they're hard, but they can be conquered.
Food, you need it. It's so much easier to go all or nothing. But no, you need to be around your temptation every day, you still need to pour the cereal, but the power to put it back and not finish the box... it takes time.
I need help. I gained 25 pounds in the past few months. I want to lose 15. Please, help me.
I joined the clean eating challenge today.
My goal:
fruit, veggies, lean protein, whole grains, tea, crystal light, coffee in moderation. no added sugar.

Anyone looking to lose 15 pounds and keep it off as part of a life lifestyle change?

i have had food problems for a few years. i am technically ednos with anorexic tendencies - i am underweight but not at an anorexic bmi. i do very well with food and haven't binged in a while, but the problem for me is if i feel i haven't done well with food [by eating over 500 calories] i will decide to eat since i've thrown the day away already. if i plan a binge, like having toast, i will not eat anything else all day and have half the loaf. i recently went raw vegan, so i find it's harder for me to binge. i never binge on vegetables, even though i love them, because of the constant chopping and peeling. if i binge now it is on fruit, like frozen grapes or entire 6oz. containers of raspberries or strawberries. i wouldn't say i'm a consistent binger, and i would say my diet has improved considerably. i just wish i could get out of that all or nothing mindset.

Even though my binges have decreased dramatically..I used to starve all day and then eat 3000+ in the evening..now I tend to eat normally during the day and then say have couple scoops of ice creams and 2 small brownies or something and a bit of chocolate, might sound alot to some of you but a definite decrease. I just cant seem to RULE it out completly-anyone else managed to decrease but not quite get it? Or has somenoe managed to just come through this stage? Hate,all I wanna do is just eat eat eat...........

I havent binged in so long, but last night i had a cheat night and ate a 100 calories chocolate bar, some peanutbutter MM's, and some 5 cent candies...I definately went over my calorie limit but I felt in control and it was my decision so I dont feel so bad but i decided not to step on the scale this morning. :)

okayyy, right after I posted that I binged....jinxed I guess damnit.

hi everyone. hope you are all having a good day. i have done good so far. probably around 800 cals give or take a few. i'm about to go to work for five hours, then later probably have an apple and peppers or carrots. i am determined not to binge tonight. good luck everyone.

I was feeling like binging so badly last night but i had a glass of milk and it seemed to make the urge go away....so if any of you feel lik binging tonight, try drinking a glass of milk first. Ive done alright today...590 calories so far.

Wow.

I binged today, and I feel so numb. I feel so worthless.

It's like I didn't have any control over my body. It just took over, and I consumed.

I chose to do that.

Now I'm going to fast to make up for it.

I don't know why I ate so much. It's so hard not to hate myself for this. I'm crying. I don't understand. I feel like a monster.

I hate this.

it's okay, i did too =(
i feel soooo disgusting .. i ate just under 3500 calories .. i had like 3383 but still .. EWWWWW .. i was at the gym for a bit in the morning and i OVER-excused myself .. =S i ate so much of these stupid splenda cookies and splenda brownies .. i just wasn't satisfied because they just weren't as good as normal, sugar cookies and brownies .. i've learned my lesson .. eating more and more of what doesn't satisfy you will NOT satify you overall

ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww .. tomorrow is a new start people <3

i just binged :( ate mushrooms, some pulled pork, some baked lays, wheat thins, few bites low fat cottage cheese, some cereal out of the box, and a few peanuts but i spit most of them out. oh and some grapes too :( i guess the good thing is that they weren't that bad of foods but i still feel lousy. not really sick yet, just lousy. i really wish i would have just gotten some gum or something because i'm supposed to be having dinner soon. oh well. i only ate about 400 cals before that so if i don't eat that much tonight i should be ok. i think only eating around 1100 cals yesterday probably had something to do with this, although it also has a lot to do with procrastination. hope everyone else is having a better day.

i'm binging right now

chips, cookies, cereal, ice cream, chocolate... everything

hate this cycle of restrictive diet and binge..

hey everyone, i think i might have the binging in control. to those who went from restricting to binging, if i have a craving for something, i think to myself, "would i have hesitated to eat this when i was normal? (that is before i developed the binging)" if it's no, then i go ahead and eat it, a sensible amount though. i'm always comparing it to the amount i would've eaten back then without feeling guilty. i know some days you will have the urge to keep stuffing your face even when you know you are not hungry and are stuffed to the point where your gut would explode if you had anymore. what really made me kick my binging habit though, was not caring about how other people judged me. i was simply too tired to care about what they thought of me, so i basically caved in to my cravings. i didn't fast after i binged, i still ate big meals- yes, even with a painful stomach! that seemed to cure it, because i slowly reduced the amount of food i ate as i got mentally stronger. if you can't do that yet, keep eating sensible meals. the time will come when you are ready. the key is to maintain first.. (KICK THE GODDAMN BINGING HABIT!) then focus on losing weight. you really don't have anything to lose if you're maintaining (no pun intended) if anyone wants support/help, feel free to msg me. i hope this post helped, and if not, ah well, i tried.