Health & Support

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

insecure_teen - me too!! i can't stop. i had been doing fine for two days. then my binge started last night and onto today. i estimate over 3500 calorie intake for today. sighhh. life would be alot more normal if i didn't constantly fixate on food.

Hey guys, here's a little update of my binging life:

I had an extreme binge today. I woke up, ate for 4 hours, went out for 3 hours, came back, and then ate until 9. For the past 6 days I was doing well. I did not binge, and I exercised EVERY SINGLE DAY. I've never done that before. I don't know hwat I"m feeling right now. I feel happy that I only binged for 1 day of the week, but I'm also sad that I couldn't keep up my good behavior for the whole week. Right now I'm just deathly afraid that I'll binge again tomorrow. I don't want to. I don't want to continue the binging cycle, because that could go on forever... but I don't know how to prevent it.

*sigh* the only thing I can do is wait for tomorrow night to come.

Good luck to all of you who are battling with the binging monster!

What is it with night time? I don't think I eat emotionally, I feel like I'm happy and satisfied, so i don't know why I do it. My biggest problem is at night though. I'm trying to replace binge time with time at the gym, and it seems to help a lot. I feel so weak though, that food has such a tight grasp on my psyche, and I am perplexed as to why, because I have everything I could want. I suppose I am addicted to the numbness and satiation that you get from binging, I just wish I knew why so that I could address it more specifically.

Another night,another binge...its never ending. I know this is a bit disgusting but does anyone else get the runs the morning after a binge? I was so close not to binging tonight but no,I had to go and ruin it.

just been reading through this forum and id like to say my names bangler and im a binger !

I eat cuz im bored, i think. Its also because im too lazy to prepare something proper to eat. Im not gaining weight - but not loosing it either. At college i get so hungry and scoff a bar of chocolate & pack of crisps at break time so fast i can hardly taste em ! I never pack a lunch - even though i know i should so i dont hafta have a pot noodle w/ chocolate, crisps and coffee.

I want to take control of my food intake because if i keep eating this much junk i wont be able to function normally ! My body is ament to be my temple... but right now its more like a downtown slum !!

thought i'd share :D Im gonna become a non binger !!!

Hello everybody - yep, I am a binger, too. And there I was doing so well for a week... I believe it was stress, I had a huge amount of stuff to do this weekend, so much that I could not decide where to start... So I ended up going to bed and eating. Still suffering from the food hangover as we are talking. Part of the problem with me and binges is that the urge for a binge does not just go away after a few minutes like a crave might. And once I get into the mindset for a binge, I will almost purposely not try for a 'lifeline', such as calling a friend instead, go for a walk or whatever aother advices there are. Once I am in the binge mindset, I WANT to have my binge, even if I know somewhere that I am going to regret it later. Does anyone else know this? And how to deal with it?

Rosacana I am exacrtly the same as you..Iv heard all the tricks about how to prevent a binge blah blah..but when I want one,its in my head and theres no stopping me..its like even though I know how unbelievably unhappy it will make me..it still has to happen.

Rosacana, I also understand what you're talking about.  Once I've decided I'm going to binge I get a rush.  I get exciting thinking about what I'm going to binge on and in what order I'm going to eat it and what I'll watch on tv while I'm doing it.  Running around the grocery store is all of a sudden exciting.

I know that once the binge is over I'll feel ten times worse than that initial high but it never stops me. 

did you know?  did you know that you actually get a physical feeling of pleasure from food?  it's the dopamine response in the brain and increased serotonin.  it's very similar to a drug addiction and to smoking sickerettes.  and it's been said that breaking the food addiction cycle is worse than breaking the sickerette addiction which is harder than breaking a drug addiction to crack cocaine or heroin!!!

that is why this is so dang hard. 

so... please don't feel like a failure just because you struggle.

it's more important to realize that this is a problem.  that your reaction to the problem is very normal. that you can beat the problem, but it will be hard and will take lots of practice probably before you do.

and you can do it!!!

you have to decide deep down inside that you want to stop this behaviour.  you have to keep deciding that again and again and again, each and everytime you get a whammo urge to binge...

and sometimes it will be beyond difficult and you may struggle and cry and feel upset... but you can get through the urge to binge.

no one died from not bingeing. 

promise.

you can do this.

we can do this. 

here.

together :)

i binged again today. on fudge. i cant do this anymore i havent been on the scale in weeks! im so scared! i dont know what to do i cant say goodybye to all this food!

wow.  i have only read the first page of this group and already can relate.  i'm thinking to start, i will just come read the other pages when i'm wanting to binge!

Please someone help me. I've been dealing with eatting dissorders for over five years now and im over the bulimia and anorexia thing but binge eatting dissorder is still taking over me. I try not to restrict and on calorie count it says at sedentary level that i burn about 1800 calories in a day. Sometimes im afraid to eat that much because what if i didn't count the calories right..... Another reason is because i eat until Im full and i end up at the end of the day with like 1200 or 1300 calories but then night time happens and i just eat and eat and eat until i just feel so sick.
What i really want to do is to just lose weight 10 pounds and i know i would be fine. I exercise everyday except on sundays. I weight lift for like an hour or a little bit more and run for a half an hour on Monday Wed. Friday and then on Tuse Thurs Sat I run for an hour or a little less. Weekends are when i tend to binge and i don't know how to control them. Im on spring break right now at my moms house and i just finished another binge i feel so sick. I don't know what to do i just feel so depressed about it. How do i stop binging i can't stand this anymore please can anyone help me? What do i need to do to end this

Alacrita, I am in the exact same shoes as you - from the past anorexia and bulimia, to full fledged binge eating disorder.

I'm trying to start a new leaf this weekend.

For me weekends are the best because I don't have to get dressed up or even leave the house if I don't want - I can just chill, sleep as much as I need to to avoid eating too much, and try to get in as much exercise and healthy foods as I can.

Why don't we try to make this Saturday and Sunday a good weekend?

I know it's hard to resist the binges sometimes, but we really will feel better on monday if we don't.

oh, and I too have only 10 lbs to lose.  I'm 114 and want to get back down to my 104, or at least below 110 lbs. :)

keep up the effort

Eurgh I just had the worst binge.Eurgh I realy do hate myself...Monday is a fresh and I will stop this once and for all,I will.

hey, insecure teen.

I hear you. I just had my worst too. This may sound wierd, but...Wanna do this together? Starting Monday: you and me, no bingeing. If I want to, I'll think "WAIT. I'd be letting you down. And of course, myself more than anyone."

I guess It would just be easier if I knew I was in it with someone else, not alone. We'll write to eachother about how it's going: good or bad. Even if I binged, I'll have to tell you and vise versa.

Are you in? :)

I am definitely definitely in..I really really really need to stop this once and for all. I know I probably read this but are you English or American? I feel so sick from today and the worst thing is I have to eat dinner with my parents and I cant make any excuses cos then they get suspicious that I am anorexic...if only they knew.

I live in Canada, so North American hah.

I know what you're saying.. I hate when my parents tell me to come to dinner, and I have to tell my mom privately that I ate the whole house, (she's the only one who knows/understands) and I get so emotional and start balling my eyes out, while she says

"It's ok. Just go lie down or something." Then while I do, I can clearly hear the dinner conversation. Talking about my "problem" bingeing, while my sisters try to whisper saying things like

"Why can't she just eat normally?" "Why does she let herself do that?"

It's horrible, I just cry and cry and end up goring myself AGAIN once everyones left the kitchen. They have no idea. But we do, so let's do this!

WE CAN DO THIS TOGETHER! haha (I'm just trying my hardest to be positive)  Tomorrow's day one!

Awesome,I am determined!!! No one else understands...I know exactlty what your saying...its horrible how people say "why cant they just control it?" its not our fault!! do you ever purge or is it just binge?

I binge.  mostly at night before going to bed.  I have a taste for something in my mouth, I'm not hungry but I eat.  It is very depressing. 

I have awesome news!! i havent binged in a week.. and although it doesnt seem like a big deal it is HUGE! it means that i can eat without feeling like im setting myself up for a binge.. i realized that i no longer felt the need to depend on food when i challenged myself to eat my ulitimate binge food. a chewy bar. they are only 100 cals a piece but we all know that can add up FAST. anyways i ate it and i was satisified.. but i still brush my teeth after im done having all the food that is appropriate for the day because it gives me this weird sense of security. im so freaking happy. good luck everyone :)