Health & Support

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

I'm making myself accountable.  I binged last night.  I can usually last 5 - 7 days in between binges, and use laxatives to make myself feel less guilty.  Last night I binged without laxatives, and I had binged the Sunday before (just 3 days before).  I tried purging but I have a gag reflex made of steel.  I can never purge.  I woke up this morning and hit the gym instead.  I hope to challenge myself...I'm flying for Florida next wednesday.  I don't want to binge between now and then.  Maybe if I make it I'll reward myself with a binge when I return from my trip.  Isn't that sick..a reward binge.

haha i just ate like 4000 calories again today.

it scares me but i know i have to gain weight, im not enjoying the physical pain from self starvation anymore, and my body really is forcing me to eat right now, and i have to say even only the last 2 days i am finally enjoying my life again.

i hope i can continue, i don't want to put on loads of weight, but i dont want to have such visible ribs, swollen ankles, unbearable pinching feelings in my side and chest. I say this and I'll probably be restricting in a few days, especially considering the 3 course meal i have tommorow and another possible party on saturday. I could be putting on serious pounds.

but hey with a BMI of 16.3, i shouldnt have to care.

anorexia takes over your life, it will destroy friendships and put you in a state of depression, food gives me energy to be active, happy and sociable, i shouldnt have to be starving myself as a 16 year old male.

sorry to tell my life story, im just happy to be helping myself to be me again :)

I'm feeling it cringing on the back of my mind again.  Some sick part of me is planning a binge and I know exactly what it wants to eat.  I am really scard that I'll let myself do it. 

Sometimes driving home from work it takes intense physical willpower to turn the steering wheel towards home instead of the pizza place.

I want to cry.  =/

I had the worst binge today, I was feeling so hopeless and fat. I just binged so bad.

I want to go work out for 1000 hours.

hang in there everyone it's possible
i too want to binge really bad, i have an exam saturday and it's becoming so difficult to not binge.
i ve already a normal dinner not low cal at all but still want to go out and buy stupid things

Anyone see in the news that BED has been recognized as the most common eating disorder?
3.5% of women suffer from BED and 2% of men.
Just because it's common does not make it ok, don't let this news justify a binge. BED IS BEATABLE. I've done it, hang in there, there IS hope.

I failed.

My stomach hurts and I feel bloated.

I'm crying now.  I know this is bad for me and I can't win, at least it seems like I can't.  I don't want to die young, I just need willpower.

i've done it
i'm not proud
lots of toasts with lots of butter and lots of milk and a piece of chocolate
i'm feeling so bad and do so lots
i'm dealing with so much right now
pain

seraphsong hang in there please, be nice for yourself now that you've binge , it's possible and it's the best thing to do
you can do it

i've done it
i'm not proud
lots of toasts with lots of butter and lots of milk and a piece of chocolate
i'm feeling so bad and do so lots
i'm dealing with so much right now
pain

seraphsong hang in there please, be nice for yourself now that you've binge , it's possible and it's the best thing to do
you can do it

(((HUG))) amlm and seraphsong hang in there. It is possible to beat this, it just takes time. I know how you are feeling, I've felt those same feelings. Ashamed, angry, frustrated, failure. You just have to take it one day at time, one meal, one snack at a time. You just have to put today behind you, wake up tomorrow, and start fresh.:) I am going to add you both to my friends list if you don't mind. Hang in there!

I have this posted in my journal, and I read it whenever I am having a bad day. Maybe it will help a few of you too.:)

Be Patient with Yourself!! Making positive lifestyle changes takes time and practice. So, if you slip up one day, don't be discouraged! You can learn from it and get back on track the next day. Don't forget to reward your progress! (My favorite.....pedicure:))

Nobody's Perfect!! Dieting is hard work. Be prepared for occasional setbacks.

Think Food Through!! When you crave a fattening food, visualize your feelings after you've eaten it and focus on the fact that it isn't worth the remorse you'll feel. Face Yourself!  Attach a mirror to the front of the refrigerator and another on the pantry. Actually facing yourself may keep you from snacking. And don't forget to smile and tell yourself...You can do this!! 

Set Goals!! Setting positive, realistic goals will help you stay committed and keep you on track.

Remember, It Takes Time!! Changing old habits is never easy! It won't happen overnight. And remember, those extra pounds didn't appear overnight and they won't disappear overnight. Stay positive, focus on your goals, and if you do happen to slip up, don't get discouraged. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start again the next day.:)

YOU CAN DO IT!!! Look yourself in the mirror every morning and say, you can do this:) You are going to have a good day.:) And you are worth it!!

is it a good thing that i cant stop eating? i cant restrict myself anymore im uncontrollable in what i eat, i dont want to be anorexic but i dont want to suddenyl go into overeating either

again
pasta carbonara
toasts with butter and milk
kit kat chuncky

feel so bloated
what's wrong with me??

cjsaygee- Can you give me a little more info to work with? Like how many calories you're consuming, what you are eating. Are you constantly eating junk? I am constantly eating, but it's a little bit at a time, so by the end of the day my calories are somewhere between 1200 and 1500. I do this to keep from getting too hungry and binging. If you're constantly eating junk or your calories are way too high (remember 3500 calories = 1 lb weight gain) then no, it's not a good thing. So tell me a little more:) Hang in there sweetie:)

amlm- drink lots of water sweetie, and eat a healthy dinner tonight. Grilled chicken and veggies is always good. When you wake up tomorrow, start fresh, forget about today, forget about yesterday, tomorrow will be day 1, binge free. Eat a healthy breakfast to start your day off, and take it one meal at a time. If you start to feel hungry eat a piece of fruit with some hot tea. Never let yourself get too hungry. Warm liquids always help you feel more satisfied. Eat a healthy lunch, and dinner. If you start thinking about food and you're not hungry, log on to cc, write in your journal, go for a walk, brush your teeth, do something, anything to occupy your mind.:) Hang in there hun!

Hi everyone, it's been awhile since I've written anything. I went almost a month without a binge and then I had 2 ice creams at my moms' (she stresses me)  . That is still nothing compared to what I did a month ago. I tried to figure out what changed for me. All of a sudden I didn't crave stuff like I use to. I was trying to stay within 1200-1500 cal which I pretty much did. This morning I weighed in I only lost 1 lb. but I haven't exercised at all because of knees and I didn't measure anything I ate. Tonight I saw something on t.v. that said that artificial sweeteners are okay if they don't make you hungry or have cravings. A LIGHT BULB MOMENT! The only thing I stopped on Jan.1st was using equal or sweet & low. I started using reg. sugar 1-2 tsp., in my coffee and sweet tea. I'm going to continue watching this. I'm trying to cut reg sugar to black coffee and going to start exercising (I got my mini trampoline together). If it was the artificial sugar and it stopped my problem the calories reg. sugar has. doesn't even come close to what I did on a binge. I  feel like I'm in control again. Good luck to everyone. I hope that maybe this will help someone else. :)

gypsierose that is really interesting. I use Splenda. Maybe I will switch to reg sugar and see what happens. I have had a lot of success controlling my binges since starting cc, but I sometimes have major sugar cravings that make it difficult. Thanks for the tip!:)

christinak, I don't know what else could have changed, give it about 3-5 days. I also don't drink diet sodas. I don't drink soda's often but if I do I have reg. I love to find out if this did help someone else. Good luck.

im disgusted with my self. I ate 6100 because i had a fight with my fiance. is that worth it or what? this is wat i ate boston pie (500)
oatmeal (300)
choc breakfast bar (250)
cereal (400)
canteloupe (100)
apple (100)
whole new packet wheat puff (1000)
milk carton (900)
chettos 2 packet (250)
soy chips (250)
herb mix (150)
tapioca pudd (100)

I freaking puke like 4 x today. Will somebody pls help. Yar yar all they go is just jusdge the way u can't control urself. they're without the slightest understanding. i tried help.. but one after the other doesnt work. i can sleep, think or do college. i wish someone whould help.
sad_An6el@hotmail.com

Has anyone ever gone through such a bad binge that they actually had to go grocery shopping the next day just to feed their kids?

Because I have, and it's very shameful.  You know you have a problem when you eat a whole box of snacks that you had botten specifically for your little girl.

(shame*)

today I was doing good and then I started about an hour and a half ago and have since had 2 pieces of tst with pb and j, an english muffin with pb and j, 6 pieces of pizza, and a muffin.

Why??? urgh

after a whole week of healthy eating.

Crap! Another late night binge.

I've binged all week, this really sucks.