Health & Support

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

Hi nifty ~ welcome.  Please don't feel alone anymore ~ there's lots of us here!  Read back through the thread, come here daily, stay with us... don't give up. 

The gr8 news ~ people can and do get better!!!!  In fact, if you take this head on, your whole rest of your life will be much better!

you've made a gr8 start tonight....

make friends, chat, journal...  we'll walk together, k?

~ waives hello to everyone ~ I made it through tonight w/o bingeing or smoking ~ *yay*  it was a particularly tough day with a meeting... I always used to eat myself silly and smoke my brains out b4 this meeting...  and this was the 1st one since I quit smoking and now am working on not over-eating...  It was a big deal.   Does a little happy dance :)  woo hoo :)

Welcome to CC Laura!:) The first time I admitted that I was a binge eater I got really depressed too. But then I started to research binge eating disorder, started talking to people here about it, and finally talked to my doctor. United is right, we can get better. It just takes time. Hang in there sweetie! We are here for you. When you are struggling, post here, when you have a good day, post here! Write in your journal and we will stop by to check on you. I have also added you to my friends list. Take care!:)

.....waves to Jules.....:) WooHoo!!! That's awesome Jules! Take care hun!!!

I just binged and I feel so bad. I dont know why I do it when I hate the feeling afterwards so much and all I want to do is stop.Its such a viscious cycle and now I feel so down :(

Try not to be so hard on yourself Emily. I wish I knew how to help you. Just please don't purge.:( Are you still seeing your counseler?

Hey y'all.  Lifetime binger here.  I want you all to know how much interaction with you all, logging and journaling has helped.  I actually started on another site back in August, but then switched to this one around Christmas.  Before August, I was binging daily and had no conrol.  Practicing healthy lifestyle has given me some control.  Now I only average once a week binging.  I think I am ready to go longer, tho.

The things that have helped me:

Log everything.  Even if I binge.

Journal.

Interact with my friends.

Plan a menu that includes lean protein, fruits, veggies and grains.  My body tells me it likes healthy food.  Eating balanced meals and snacks take away cravings and calm emotions.

Shoot for 1700 calories.  Too few calories sparks a binge.

Exercise.  Even if it is just a walk.

Also, if I binge, I forgive myself and determine to do better with the next meal.  Try to learn from the situation.  Think over if I didn't do something, like plan, wait too long to eat, eat junk, etc.

I agree with redrock, this blog has helped me too.

This will be the very first time I actually admitt to any one that I am a binger and have dealt with being bulimic for as long as I can remember(I could not even tell you for how long). The end of last year I was out of control. I was binging and purging up to 7 times a day...talk about putting your body, mind and spirit in ultimate hell. I am recovering (I relaspe a few times a week) and need support so I came to the interenet. No one knows about my "secert" life. So I am pretty emotional just writing this and once I post my reply, my disease is real.

Thanks!

hey people,

so this blog helped me too. I was doing really well for awhile. two weeks with no binging. then my boyfriend went away and I have had some of the worst binges of my freken life where I am literally to sick to even breath and I dont puke I just cry afterwards. and I cant sleep at night. does anyone want to encourage me? please Im dying to get back on track and stay on track please someone give me some advice...

I used to do the same thing however I would puke...I am not fully recovered however I know that I want to be better.

Why did you do it when your boyfriend left? Is it being alone? Go to a friends if you get the urge.

im totally not connecting with any of my friends right now at all. and I just feel so alone i am bored and the cold weather is killing me. I just constantly want to eat the worst foods ever. im just phsically sick and emotionally I am totally not feling becasue all i can think of is food.

I understand the feeling of wanting and thinking about food ALL the time. I would plan binges in my head and what order I would eat the foods. I am learning that retraining the brain is very hard to do however I can admitt that I think about food a lot less than before. Do not feel bad for binging...you are on here for a reason and that is to get better.

I am not where it is cold however do you have somewhere to go where food is not? Keeping myself busy with other things helps distract my feeling to binge. I found that when I was alone and bored is when I ate myself sick then I would get depressed and withdrawl further and further into my binges. I  laugh now at myself because at one point it was my only friend/hobby.

Goal one for you is too not feel bad anymore. Compliment yourslef when you do NOT binge. I tell myself "today you were a good girl". I know it is cheesey but it does make me feel better. What is bothering you emotionally?

I had to stop feeling sorry for myself. I felt like no one loved me, withdrew from the world and held on the the binges becasue that is all I had. I wish I had talked to people about my problem a long time agao, then I would not have to worry about the health problems I have now.

It is not easy and I wish I could make all of us better...Do you have a way to go see your boyfriend?

i just binged 1,000cal in about 3 hours now at a little above 2,100cal i havnt had anything close to that in almost 2 weeks past two weeks i was at 1,200-1,700 every day ughhh

i hate the feeling of my huge stomach and knowing that it will be more hungry tomorrow cuz now im used to more food in it :-/ i hate weekends

and im going to france for a sport without my computer on monday, so i need to be in the right mindset for it no weighing myself for a week i keep track of food on my cell or a journal when i travel but still, i hate it, not being able to be on top of things any advice when traveling with a lot of hungry teen-age girls with penutbutter around the hotel rooms, and no familiar american food??? help, i need to get back up quick from this slip up

do you think that my cal intake will be that bad on my weight? ive lost 8.5 pounds since Jan 1, and i really need to keep it up :-(

any response with advice or somthing would help a lotttt thanks -A-

Thanks for you support guys,

Hey Christina, Yeah I am still seeing her but I have not been able to go in a while because of the christmas holidays and then iv had really busy exams (shes in school you see). Its just so hard because I dont know why I do it,its crazy and I cant feel like I can talk to any of my friends about it because of how wierd they would think it was and I dont want to talk to my mum about it at the moment because I am going on holiday with the school in February half term and one of the conditions was that I would try to eat normally (she never knew about the purging). Some days I feel normal and that I can do it and then others,its just horrible and like its never going to end. I just have such issues with my stomach-its all about my stomach..if I could just be happy with it then I think I could overcome all of this.

Thanks for listening.

(((HUGS))) Emily:) I have seen your pictures and you're a beautiful young lady. I understand the insecurties you are going through, because I went through the same thing when I was your age. One thing you are going to have to realize is that, as women, our stomachs will never be flat as a board. It's just how our boby's are made. Even really thin models have a little pooch. I also understand that you want to go on your trip, and that's fine. But I really think, and strongly encourage, that you talk to your mom when you get back. You need her support, as well as continuing to see your counseler. Take care sweetie.:)

What a brutally honest but wonderful thread as I know it can be hard to face the bingeing and realising what it is doing. I  like to think of myself as an ex binger but will never forget what I used to binge on and how much I ate. There were days, when I was at my worst, where I would eat 3 McDonalds meals and 6 bags of crisps and chocolate. I would lock myself away in the flat..not even my partner was aware that I was doing it. I would spend so much money on food...and would feel absolutely terrible after I had eaten it andwanted to make myself vomit. I would say that I have bordered on having an eating disorder. I am ashamed to say thatI have abused laxatives at one time...absolutely silly thing to do and, although I only did it for 2 weeks, it made me very sick.

I hope that I have moved on from my bingeing days...it is almost 20 months now since I had my last major binge.

Well done larrylou-thats so good that you have been free from bineging for so long! i am taking every day at a time and i am definitely trying to clear that all from my history and start a fresh.

Thanks again Christina! I know that I just need to accept myself for who I am,easier said than done unfortunately but hopefully it will get better with time,I really hope so

I hope you guys are all doing great.

Larrylou that's awesome! I really hope someday I will be able to say that.:) Thank you for posting!

I know it's easier said than done, Emily. I know it's not possible to wake up tomorrow and just be ok with your body. I have days where I think I look pretty darn good, and other days......you get what I'm saying.:) But when you're feeling horrible about yourself everyday, that's when it's bad. Has your counseler helped you with any self esteem exercises? When I was your age my counseler had me write down the things I liked about myself. I didn't have to show it to her. And it did help. It made me focus on something more positive. Anyway, post here whenever you want hun. I always check this thread, and there are many wonderful people here. A lot of us are dealing with our own demons, and the support we have found here has really helped. Have a good day!

thhenderson, I am so proud of you for taking the first step of facing your issue with binging. 

Soshy, I know how you feel.  I binge when I am alone, too. 

About my progress....My first hurdle was learning to like myself and my own company.  I just had a really negative attitude toward myself.  Now, I believe that I really like myself most of the time.  I think that is getting pretty close to healthy self-esteem.  It was/is a journey, tho.  I had to stop my negative thought processes.  I did a lot of self-help studies.  I went to counseling a few times.  Over time, I have learned to be a pretty positive person towards myself, others and life around me.  It is about always looking for the silver lining, even if it means just that I learn a hard lesson.  It is about focusing on what is positive in me and in others.  It is about accepting that nobody is perfect, and that is normal.  So, I shouldn't expect more of myself than I can be.  It is about taking responsibility for my life and not blaming others, because I am the one who is responsible for it from this point on.  It is about being happy with my choices and making the best choice available.  It is about how I choose to react to circumstances.  I can wallow in them and pity myself and let 'it' ruin my day, or I can let it roll off and deal with those things that I have control over.  It is about choosing my attitude toward life.  It is about changing my perspective from negative to positive.  It is about controlling what I can, and giving God the rest.

"Two prisoners sat looking thru the windows of their cells.  One saw bars, the other saw stars." ....Let's look at the stars.  :-)

May your journey be successful. 

Love,

Ronda

Your all so great. You've given me so much support. If I wouldn't have had some of you to check in with I wouldn't have made it to my 25 days since my last binge. Trying to stay within my calorie range  and going to add in some exercises.  Take care all.

Ok, maybe it's just me, but...

Sometimes does anyone feel like they NEED to binge. Like it's a regular habit now... So for example, you sigh and walk to the kitchen because you see "ohh, its 7, binge time..sigh" SOmetimes I feel like  dont even want the food but its just become a stupid habit like, "oh gosh, its 6, gotta go clean my room- sigh"

I dont know, I think this could be way easier if I just break the habit becuas I dont even enjy it, I just do it cause I feel like I hav to.

Anyone else?

No, I definitely feel that way too.  That's why it's so hard for me when I've binged several days in a row.  It feels like such a habit that I'll almost do it without thinking, without being hungry, and without an obvious trigger.  Still trying to figure out what to do with that, especially when I find myself at home by myself for long periods of time.