Motivation

Hi, my name is Suzanne and I am 23 years old. I weigh 258.3 pounds(yikes) and would really like to get down to between 140 and 150. I was wondering if there was anyone else out there in their 20's who has about that much they want to lose. We could work together and stay motivated to reach our goals!!! Also, if there is anyone in their 20's who has lost that much and wants to share their success story, I would love to hear it! Thanks!

watchme, you really should do it for yourself. i used to be like that, want to get all skinny b/c i was in love with some dude, but it invariably didn't work out, and i invariably put all the weight back on, plus some. please don't let some guy control your health. do this because you want a longer, healthier life. and if there's a guy somewhere in there, it's cake.

personally, i want to get in a long term relationship while i still have most of the extra weight on, b/c then maybe he'll appreciate all the work i put into looking fabulous, and he'll know me at my worst, whereas if i don't get in a relationship till i'm thin, he won't know how hard i struggled w my weight, and he might not understand if for some reason i regain a pound or two.

then again, i might find out he's a chubby chaser, and he dumps my skinny butt!

I'm losing motivation so I'm posting more pics of me.  The more pics I see of my full body (I tend to avoid looking at them!!) the more motivated I will be to stay on track cuz I look GROSS and UGLY!  ahhhhh!!!

Chubby chaser! That seems so mean! My husband likes loves women with curves... big or small, I'll always have hips, so even though I've gained SO much weight since we first met, he still thinks I'm beautiful. I'm incredibly lucky.

He told me once I had thunder thighs, and I cried... until I figured out he didn't know "thunder thighs" was a bad thing. He'd gone his whole life thinking it was a compliment!

allydan: thanks for the respond compiment! But I have been major slacking! I am glad you and THE GUY are doing so great! Smiling is definitely a work out! You just keep it up!

janalmeida(Jan): Welcome to our group! I agree that there is way to much pressure to look a certain way in your 20's. One girl I work with has actually told me that you should at least look good while you are young. She said when she was young it was easy for her to maintain her body and doesnt' understand why I can't. She is 44 and currently the fatest she has ever been, and trying to lose weight. She is a size 4. She makes me sick. Congrats on your loss so far, but I don't think you should eat less than 1200 cals a day. You might go into starvation mode. I am trying 1400 right now, when I can stick to it. Good luck!

watchmeshine: Yay 16 lbs! You will reach your goals because you are taking all of the right steps. Just keep sticking to it and you will be so proud of yourself! We will have to all have a huuuuge party when we reach our goals. Way to go on losing 11 inches in your hips! I am looking forward to eliminating my cravings the way you have! You are neither gross or ugly. You are on a very difficult journey/mission to be your best and you will get there!

danibelle414: I have to say I am so grateful for all of you who have joined this group. Without it, I know I probably would have already thrown in the towel, like I tend to do. But reading how hard all of you are working, and struggling helps me stay motivated. Maybe not as motivated as some of us, but at least I didn't just give up. I am trying to at least not gain weight, and getting more and more motivated to actually lose it!

dalmalama: You can do it! He will fall all over you with your sexy wig and outgoing personality! Not to mention your natural good looks! Go for it!

I am working really hard today because my mother in law found out from my husband I am losing weight, and so made a huge huge batch of black bottom cupcakes, my favorites that I can't resist, and gave me 10 of them to take home. Did I mention she made them in a muffin pan? Anyhow, 440 calories in each muffin and I can't resist them so I had one for breakfest today. I had a really good lunch though of a small salad with low cal dressing (only 150 cals for my entire lunch) and I will have a salad and maybe some chicken and rice for dinner so I can stay in my target range of about 1450 cals!

feddiechick: I was once cast as the leading roll of the screen play in junior high. After my audition, I found out the roll would be "Susie Thunder" I immediately declined the roll because I could see it now....I would have the nickname of "Suzy thunder thighs" for the rest of my jr high and high school life. Ugh. But it's funny that your hubby thought that was a compliment! Gotta love the things that pop out of men's mouths!

suzanne, black bottom cupcakes? you MIL is evil!

those things are SO good, so good. but good idea, having one for breakfast. i don't know if i'd have the will power to just have one a day. although, i did recently buy three yummy dark chocolate bars (they came in a pack) and managed to stretch them out over three days, even eating half a bar at a time. that is so unlike me. i have the biggest sweet tooth for dark chocolate, and even though it's rich, the old me would've eaten two bars in one day.

that's the thing, i've been able to satisfy my love of all things dark chocolate without going over my caloric limit, and even lose weight. sometimes it feels too good to be true, like i'm gonna gain weight somewhere down the road, even though it totally fits within my daily amounts. i guess i'm not used to the idea that losing weight doesn't have to mean depriving yourself.

and i was just joking about the chubby chaser thing!

NO kidding Dalmalama she is evil! They are so so so good though. I figured if I eat it for breakfast, I will have time to burn it off. I am burning it with anger now! Seriously, how many cal's an hour can being furious get you??? Remember before I was so mad becuase someone else took my anniversary week for vacation? And I couldn't have it too? A girl who works here and has less seniority then me was able to get it with the girl who already has it! That is so freaking F*&%ed! I am furious! I need a better job! Anyhow dalmalama, sorry for the rant. It's good that you are enjoying your dark chocolate, and staying within your limits. I am glad you can do that! I am trying to stick to mine too!

low fat/lite sour cream, pico de gallo (tons of it), specific kind of guacamole that isn't too fattening and 50 cals for 2 tbsp, 2 pcs whole grain bread, and lots n lots of turkey = KICK a** sandwich that is totally yummy and under 350 cals!!!!  :)  (i normally do hummus with my turkey but felt like a change)

Hey ladies!  I've been out of town for a couple days and had no internet access, so I have a lot of catching up to do!  I hope you're all having a great day!  

And Suzanne: I'm so freaking pissed off for you about your vacation!!!!!!!! *shakes head* 

Hey guys,  I know I just pop in here randomly but I wanted to let everyone know I weighed my self after like 2 weeks of not doing so and I lost 5 more pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!! 

I am so psyched by my progress and guess what I committed my self to do a 5 mile walk for March of Dimes. I know it  is not exactly a marathon but it will motivate me to be in shape for the big day. Please visit my page for more details and for a link to my walk for babies page.

P.S Watchmeshine  that sandwich sounds yummy, do you make your own guacamole or do you buy it? I am always scared that I will over do it even w/ the "good" fats.

 

pinkcobra: Thanks for feeling my pain! I hope your out of town time was fun!

the guacamole is some random brand from Target's grocery dept and was only about 4 grams of fat for 2 tablespoons!  it's soooo good!

I just took a new pic of myself and posted it (the main one)... me with no make-up and breaking out from work stress!!!!  ahhhh!  but it's me at 271.  I actually do think I see a difference on my face even between the 281 weight pics and this one....  But maybe it's just wishful thinking!

Hi everyone!  

So after all my stressing about falling off the wagon last week, I weighed myself today and I'm down 4lbs!!!!!  I'm at 202!  My goal at the beginning of the year was to be under 200 lbs for my birthday in April, and barring disaster, I'm going to make it and then some!  YAY!  The only thing I can think of is that my monthly visitor affected my weight last week, and that even though I wasn't counting calories and eating healthy all weekend long, I was still eating good enough portion sizes to stay in my goal calorie range.  Either way, YAY again!  I'm so stoked, I'm going to the gym tonight! :-)

You know dalmalama, I kinda agree with you about the getting into something while the weight is still on.  The last thing I want is to lose tons of weight and then date some guy who sees old pictures of me and is like, "OMG!  You better not get that fat again!" or something along those lines.  After being a big girl for so long, I have very little patience for someone who's fat-phobic and acts like overweight people are second class citizens.  At least if you're still big when you get with someone, you know they're not going to turn out to be all weird and prejudiced.  Way to go on the not over-indulging in chocolate, by the way!  That's one thing I just can't help myself around!  It's genetic; my mom used to hide candy bars in her night stand drawer!  Of course, at her biggest she was a size 10 so it didn't matter, but all the same, it's not my fault!  I just love chocolate!  Mmmm!

watchmeshine, you are NOT gross and ugly!  You have to learn to love yourself now, even at a big size, because losing weight won't change everything, especially not self-esteem.  It can help, but you have to love yourself at every size!  Plus, you're just not gross or ugly... you're very pretty! Don't let the weight get you down!

feddiechick, that's totally funny (and sweet!) about your husband!  You're totally lucky!  If it weren't for THE GUY, I'd be dying of envy right now! :-)

Hey Suzanne!  Thanks for the encouragement, chica!  And you totally haven't been slacking; you somehow manage to have something awesome to say about everyone!  I totally don't know how you do it!  And I'm almost afraid to ask, but what are black bottom cupcakes?  They sound like they involve chocolate, so probably I should never find a recipe for them!  No chocolate is safe around me! :-)  I'm totally pissed about your vacation too!  SOOOO not fair!  Is there anyway you can write up/complain about the person who does the scheduling?

Welcome back, pinkcobra! :-)

OMG, congratulations, yessicazctcs!  Five pounds is awesome!  And way to go with the March of Dimes walk!  That totally takes guts! :-)

Congrats to everyone on the big numbers this week!!  I haven't weighed myself since saturday (184.4!!) and won't weigh myself till tomorrow...but I feel like I did pretty good while out of town!  Of course, it's generally when I feel like I've done really well that I seem to gain a couple....lol.  

I don't know what black bottom cupcakes are either... I was going to ask and then I thought maybe I should just stay in the dark on that one... hehe.

Watchmeshine: I love all the new pics!  I think you're looking great!

Allydan: Woohoo about THE GUY!!!  I'm so excited things are going so well for you! 

allydan, we have the same birthday! we rule!

and watchme, your face is totally slimmer!

btw, black bottom cupcakes are from the devil. the bottom half is delicious chocolate cake, while the top half is cheesecake. YES, cheesecake. and the most sinful ones have chocolate chips on top of that.

oh man that sounds like heaven.

Now I see why you called them evil.  Pure Evil.  Le sigh.

Having too much work has meant no working out since last Wednesday.... today I could probably work out but just don't seem to want to.... I'm so bad!!!  what's new with everyone?

i just got back from dinner with a few people. went to a seafood joint, so i figured i was safe. but the only thing that looked good to me was the seafood melt. a bunch of seafood (good) and tomatoes (good) on an english muffin (neutral) covered in gobs of yummy cheese (yikes!). and i missed the gym today. but you know what? so what? i had 900 cals left for dinner, and if i went over it wasn't by much. and i rarely overindulge, so so the f&&k what. i'll be in the gym tomorrow, and within my calorie range, so so what?

that guy i mentioned was supposed to come but didn't show. i'm 99% sure he doesn't know i'm interested in him, so i won't take it personally, since there were like 8 of us.