Health & Support

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

Hi Vicky, thanks for the support.  My mom lives with me until a seniors facility is built in our home town.  That should be in the fall sometime.  It's a good thing and it's not so good of a thing.  She has taken care of someone all her life and the way she does that is to cook.   While cooking still keeps her active, it impacts on the way I eat.  None of this is her fault, I am old enough to make my own choices but find those choices difficult.  I feel like my life is slipping away, and yet feel guilty trying to make changes.  The mind is a complex thing.  Anyway, I hope you make time for yourself.  I am lucky in that respect, as I have no children or husband.  Hopefully you can get some support , get outside, a walk or something.  I had been quite good at doing daily exercise but find that when I binge and eat the wrong food, I don't have the energy to do those things.  All I want to do some days is come home and consume calories to feel better.  On top of that, I work with food all day, so FA is not a workable solution for me.  I am however, going to conselling to try and understand why I use food as comfort, and hopefully with calorie-count and these forum, change some destructive habits.
Take care Vicky, be strong

Hi delian, My mom wouldn't go to the retirement home in the area. It is beautiful too. Atleast I know where I want to live in the future. Today is take a walk day. I am getting help with mom now. My brother moved back here last month and is living with her. He's not real well so they can kinda help each other I hope. Give me more time since I know she's not by herself. Good luck this week.

Hi to everyone else, Hope you have a good week . Vacation is over tomorrow. Going shopping for those vegs. and fruit. plan my menu and walk after work, see if the planning helps with eating in evening . I use to love to dance I might try that some evenings. Have a wonderful week. vicky

Hey ya'll...This is my first time logging on?I have been "dieting" for what seems like all of my life...I believe that my first "diet", and the only successful one was when I was an active bulimic, I know very bad right?the only difference now is that I no longer purge?it seems as though when I was feeling hungry around snack time it?s the whole bag of chips, the entire shrimp ring?I have curbed this binging only to find that it still creeps up on me?my biggest issue now would have to be portion sizes?I guess I had it drilled into my head to clean my plate one too many times when I was a kid?now that I am approaching 40 I have to start leaving some behind?I also wolf my food down?I blame that on 16 years of have a 20 minute lunch break where I used to work?

Does anyone have any ideas on how to "reprogram" these binging and wolfing behaviors? Also, how it trim down portion sizes.

I am a binger. I think its the first time i have admitted it and i know i am. thats how i got myself here. it usually is snacks for me too. i am also a chocoholic! i crave chocolate like 5 times a day. hopefully that water tip will help me. anyone one else here crave chocolate like i do? what do you do?

i've been reading posts about binging since i first arrived at c-c months ago and have admired the courage it takes to put yourself out there.  so here goes nothing.  i too am a binge eater.  and 1:20 p.m. on january SECOND will be the start of my new year (since i have just been sitting here binging and managed to pull myself away from opening another mini candy bar to read this thread...) 

my biggest issues are when i crave something and try to tell myself to 1) not have it (and then I do and go nuts) or 2)try to distract myself and eat or do something different only to find i want it more an dthen i go nuts....  i generally do this when i am alone or late at night and always, always, i feel incredibly guilty and ashamed.  like i do now.  so i'm going to try to rely on all of you and post here when tempted, journal to figure out what's really going on, and try to do better. 

for now, united, even though you and i have never intereacted specifically, thanks for always telling those you "speak to" to dust themselves off and start again.  i'm going to try to do that now.  i'm leaving work where i've been binging alone even though i have other work to do.  i'm going to get back on track. 

Hi All!

Here it is Jan. 4, hope everyone is doing well and hanging in there. I did okay yesterday as far as packing lunch on first day back to work. but!!!! again when I got home I wasn't well, joint pain bad and sinsus headache. (have appt with specialist end of Jan. ) Why when I feel that bad I'd want to eat I don't understand. I didn't over do too much thank goodness (mainly since nothing is in house). I brought some yarn and hook and have a class toay to keep my hands busy. See how that goes.  My goal for today is to eat normal meals and snacks and nothing after 7 just  to make it this one night.  I'll let you know tomorow how I did. Don't want to let you all down so maybe that will help.  Have a great day everyone. vicky

Today is almost half gone and I am doing well so far, well as far as binging I am.  I just did a post on CC and found out my breakfast was too many calories, so I am just having a salad for lunch.  This is my first day on my own, Hubby has been home since Christmas and I don't start back to work until the ninth.  Alone time for me is a killer, I have to stay busy or I start thinking food.  I am going to treat myself to having my nails done in a while, so the afternoon is spoken for.  I just hope I can make it till Hubby is home and then it is easier to not just sit and eat.  I will make a healthy low cal dinner for us he too has to watch his eating habits since he is diabetic.  Wish me luck.  Will check in later in the day.

MardyKay

Well I definitely belong to this subsect of CC. I have been sober from drugs and alcohol for over two years and started binge eating once I stopped the drugs. It's acutally pretty common to cross-addict in this way. I went to treatment for trauma and BED in August 2006. My recovery has been gradual, with a lot of ups and downs, but overall I am much better than before. I attend an OA meeting once a week at 7:30am on saturdays morning, which is annoying but it's the only good OA meeting I have found. I like this idea of BA, it's essentially the same thing, it's about compulsive eating, emotional overeating, eating to heal something food cannot touch. One inspiring story, last night I was really upset, fighting with my boyfriend and I was about to sit down to eat my dinner, when I realized if I ate feeling that way it was going to spiral out of control and I was probably going to binge after my healthy, planned dinner. So I put the food in the fridge, went into my room, listened to soothing music, cried, meditated and read some prayers/motivational meditations and ate my dinner in a much calmer state and did not binge. It felt pretty good, if I could only choose that path more often!

Hi everyone,

As I read the forums i'm remembering what it used to be like and how hard daily living was. This is a 12 step program (NOT OA, and free)... is a miracle in my life, I only wish i found the answer sooner. So I encourage you all just to check out the website, or any of these contacts or email whisper_fa@hotmail.com to get in touch. It's truely worth a shot, and hearing testimonies of people in this program may help. It's a world wide 'secret' that is growing and one I feel the need to share.

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Fat - 22.2% (30 grams)
Protein - 23.2% (69 grams)
Carbohydrates - 54.6% (164 grams)
Alcohol - 0.0%
Other - 0.0%

Daily Sodium Intake - 1,216 mg
Daily Cholesterol Intake - 306 mg
Daily Fiber Intake - 23 grams
Nutrition Grade

B+Hey I made it thru the afternoon, I had a tough moment or ten about 3:00, waiting for Hubby to come home and remembered there were some peanut M&Ms in pantry, I even went in to get them and then reality hit and I said no way, went up stairs and changed sheets on the bed.  Well it got my mind off them till now, darn now I want them again, no I am not gonna give in, gonna stay up here and work on my CC log.  I need to cut down on the sodium, hard on the blood preasure, but one thing at a time, one day at a time.  Take care and good luck all!

Good going Mardykay! My hardest time to resist gorging is in the afternoon. I have had no binge days since last week and I am getting to where I can stop better than I used to, but I get so darned hungry at lunch that sometimes I just can't stop eating. I am trying hard to schedule snacks so that my bloodsugar stays stable. When I eat a lot of white carbs i get on the sugar roller coaster and it is hard to get off. I try to use all low glycemic carbs and it really has helped tame the "sugar beast" that lives inside me. If I do slip I try very hard not to beat myself up with lots of negative thoughts. I try to think of all the good things going on and get back to good nutrition at my next meal.  Good Luck 

Hey guys. I'm Lisa, oh she of the ever-expanding gullet. I am so relieved to see this thread (coming on board a bit late in the game, I know).

Part of my ED is BED (with occasional purging), cyclical, mixed in with intense periods of fasting. Night time and weekends are worse for me. During the day I tend to eat very little, typically 200 cals by dinnertime. I just can't 'allow' myself to eat that much in the day, when I feel control. Dinner is usually around 300-400 cals, and then... all hell breaks loose at least 3x a week. Multi-food binges, whatever I can find, usually straight out of the containers in the fridge. It's really ridiculous, now that i've written it down.

I did not binge last night. I'm trying to be really good. Help!

I've decided that I've GOT to start allowing myself to eat more during the day. Perhaps it is that I just NEED food.

Hi everyone, Well I finially did it. I went 24 hrs. without over eating. I ate my dinner last night , had my snack of carrots at 6:00. I went to my bedroom and read. Now that I made it one night without going food crazy I can make it one day at a time. I mangaged also to start drinking water, something I really have to work at. I just don't drink enough not even sodas. I think some of my over eating was related to that. Will let you know tomorrow a.m. how I do today. Thanks for being here and your helpful ideas. vicky

Nutrition Report

  Fat - 46.6% (111 grams)
Protein - 11.6% (62 grams)
Carbohydrates - 41.8% (224 grams)
Alcohol - 0.0%
Other - 0.0%

Daily Sodium Intake - 3,385 mg
Daily Cholesterol Intake - 554 mg
Daily Fiber Intake - 19 grams I did not give in to binge, but did not do great on my food intake today.  Guess I should not beat myself up over the M&Ms since I put them down after about 3/4 cup. and stayed away from them the rest of the day.  Tomorrow will be a test, we usually eat out on weekends, I'll need to be on my guard.  Wish me luck.

Hi, Its Saturday, I made it 48 hrs. of normal eating. Didn't drink enough water yesterday but didn't over eat. I'll see how the weekend goes. Hope your weekend is a good one. vicky

  Fat - 34.0% (72 grams)
Protein - 20.1% (95 grams)
Carbohydrates - 45.9% (218 grams)
Alcohol - 0.0%
Other - 0.0%

Daily Sodium Intake - 3,198 mg
Daily Cholesterol Intake - 145 mg
Daily Fiber Intake - 25 grams
Nutrition Grade

B-
Date Calories Grams Fat Carbs Protein Grade 2007-01-06 1,913 874 72 218 95 B- WELL TODAY WAS NOT A COMPLETE WASH OUT, AGAIN I SURE DID NOT DO WELL ON CALORIE COUNT, AND LOOK AT THE FAT GRAMS UGH, ATE OUT TWICE BUT THAT WAS ALL I HAD SO I GUESS I DID NOT BINGE AGAIN TODAY.  I BROUGHT HOME PART OF MY LUNCH STOPED WHEN I FELT FULL, THAT IS A PLUS, AND GAVE WHAT I BROUGHT HOME TO MY SON I DID NOT SNACK WHILE WATCHING THE COLTS GAME, AND WHAT A GAME IT WAS MIGHT I ADD.  OK TOMORROW I COOK, I AM NOT EATING OUT!  HMMMM WHAT TO HAVE?????? ANY IDEAS?

Well, so far I haven't done too bad.I probably ate too much in the afternoon yesterday, but I stopped and since it was 4 PM anyway, that was dinner. At least what I ate was nutritious. I just had a Vita-Mix green smoothie before bed. I'm hoping to do a little better today.
I saw a report on Good Morning America on Fri that encourages us to practice positive thinking about ourselves to decrease stress. It creates some changes within the brain that decreases appetite and makes wt loss easier. I have been trying to do this for a while now and it does help with feelings of depression and I feel calmer and happier. If interested, there's probably a link on abc.com on the gma page.

Hi.  I am a closet binge eater.  No purging.  I have been most of my life, as early as five when I would sneak into goodies that was a no-no because it was just for Dad.  I binge in private.  Now, I don't have to sneak, tho, because hubby and I work opposite shifts and it is just the two of us.  So, it is still closet binging.  Sometimes I can have a few good days, then I will binge. 

Last night I binged on three bowls of cereal and peanut butter straight from the jar. 

Seems like if I stay up past 7pm to watch TV, I set myself up for a binge.  So, I know that I should go on to bed and get up early for a work-out. 

I need to make some rules:  No food allowed with TV.  All meals and snacks at the table. 

I went grocery shopping last night, so I ended up staying up later, and, of course, eating.

I have actually damaged my digestive tract.  I have chronic burping and bloat.  Plus, I can't eat within three hours of bedtime. 

I am trying to get this figured out with the doctor.  First they thought GERD, then for a while they thought it was my gall bladder.  They ran a bunch of tests and x-rays.  All my tests and x-rays have come back clear.  So, for now we are still treating it as GERD.  The meds help some.  I am supposed to go back the end of January.  The next step is probably endoscopy (putting a scope down my throat to see what they can find).  They mentioned I might be subconsciouslly 'air swallowing.'  I don't buy this, because there is a specific time when this started.

I know exactly when the problem started.  Right after a major binge on celery and carrots, when I was trying to 'be good' and not eat junk.  

The problem gets worse when I am driving, for some reason.  I have been battling it for five months now. 

Having this problem has caused me to "behave" more often than usual, so, its a cursed blessing maybe? 

Nutrition Report

  Fat - 23.9% (33 grams)
Protein - 21.1% (66 grams)
Carbohydrates - 49.6% (155 grams)
Alcohol - 5.4% (10 grams)
Other - 0.0%

Daily Sodium Intake - 1,695 mg
Daily Cholesterol Intake - 119 mg
Daily Fiber Intake - 16 grams
Nutrition Grade

A I did a great job today, stayed busy, guess going back to work helped since almost all the ladies at work are "dieting" too.  I have to admitt that yesterday though I did not binge really, I had a very high calorie day over 3500....I am very ashamed that I fell pray to all the temptations.  I have to stay out of restraunts don't I, that is my downfall, hard to find low cal, and good things to eat out.  I did have more exercise yesterday also so that helps doesn't it?  I know I am making excuses, I am gonna get stronger I really am.

Good Luck all, I know we can whip this!  Thanks for being here for me!