Motivation

Hi everyone.

I'm a very healthy eater from day to day. VERY healthy. And I'm quite proud of my diet and my will power. I eat whole grains, lean meats, fruits and vegetables and low fat dairy products. I also eat portions of nuts and drink lots of water.

But I have a problem. I'm in university, and tend to go out to the bars on the weekends every now and then. Now, I can deal with a night of drinking, because I can control how much I drink and I dont drink really hefty sugary drinks. My problem is my loss of will power to junk food when I drink. I eat so much... SO MUCH chocolate when I'm drunk! So much that sometimes I feel ill the next day, but of course, I get back on track and dont drop my calories the next day because I know it's unhealthy recoil.

After this rant, I propose creating this group to support and track / log how many days myself and any others interested in joining can go binge free. I still dont mind having small portions of chocolate throughout the day because they might be just 5g portions. I just want to be able to motivate myself to stay on track and not destroy my healthy diet every weekend.

So, I'm going to start out. Since I went all out last night, today is...

Days without bingeing: 1 (I know the whole day hasnt gone by, but I know I'll control it today haha)

Thanks! 

Hey everyone,

 I want to join. I just read all your posts from the beginning and it makes me feel so much better that I am not the only person with this problem. And the problems and tough times you guys go through are very similair to mine. And creedy23, your post about feeling fat at the present moment all the time and then looking at old pictures and thinking that wow I was skinny, is exactly what I suffer from. For me it's not only the binging part but also the my mind telling me thoughts that are not true. I also suffer from a distorted image of myself. Throughiut the day I feel thin, fat, thin, fat and so on. Im going to try and post and I am trying to go for 100 days of no binging.

Im on Day 6

This feels impossible. I'm not able to stop the bingeing. I just binged on cookies- 2000 cals worth and am already 1000 over my daily limit. So much for losing weight

Hello all! Binge free day #1!

woo hoo. ha

Welcome, silver26!  I've found these ladies SO helpful and wonderful and generally fabulous!  It's nice to know you're not alone, huh?

jolie_fille, drink lots o'water, take a bath, make yourself feel good without food.  tomorrow's another day, and your body will forgive you!

rampantbunnylove, that is so NOT being hypocritical!  If you want to go into counseling and it makes you happy and you're good at it, who cares what issues you have (maybe YOUR counselor?! hehe)?!  It's so brave to try therapy if you haven't before.  I've said it before and I'll say it again...therapy is AWESOME! (can you tell I just went today and love my therapist?)

BINGE-FREE DAYS: TWO!!  Just had a mug of hot chocolate and am going to bed right this second, I swear :)

*these two days have been really good b/c I haven't had to make the boy dinner, as we haven't been home for dinner, so I can just graze (which is my natural habit anyway)...but tomorrow when I make us a "real" dinner, I'm afraid I'll go back to wanting to binge or just being way over...

liora, great advice.

jolie, don't give up. I was there, too. stay with it and work at it slowly...try to change one part of your bad habit at a time instead of beating yourself up over the whole thing.

silver, nice to see you here!

snoekem, I agree noshing can be a problem! :  ) especially if you come from a culture of noshers. lol

well I am on day 2. thank you all for the encouragement. it is really hard to get back on it after going off. I read something on another chat that even if you overdo and it appears that you've gained a few #s extra, give it a few day...4 or5...and your body should come back down quickly. have no idea if this is right, but, the idea is, don't punish yourself for going over, just do your best as soon as possible, to pull it back into healthy eating.

everyone have a great day!

oh, has everyone read WAYS TO AVOID EATING WHEN STRESSED. It's one of the chats in bold at the top of the motivation forum. It's good.

Silver -- Yay, I'm glad you are joining the group =).  I know it sounds trite, but the fact that both of us are able to recognize that we act this way, maybe that will help us stay binge-free..last night I felt one coming on, but had to just keep saying all these positive things about myself in my mind as I started eating some dessert...I still probably ate more than necessary, but definitely did not binge and stayed at the low end of the range I wanted to hit.  SOO anyways maybe just recognizing what triggers a binge is enough to counteract it (some of the time....)

Liora, I like your idea of hot chocolate and then bed-time...I might try that tonight ;)

joliefille you can definitely do it! Beating yourself up after binge eating is what might trigger another binge later (strange I know!) so just see today as a new day.

Days w/o bingeing: 5

Liora, I used to do the Horlicks / hot chocolate thing before bed every night too!

Cadburys and Horlicks both have light versions with less than 40 calories per mug and I swear to god they both taste as good as the regular thing. If only they were the same price :(

24 hours without binging. I just did an exercise DVD, had a bowl of Oatso Simple, and feel nice and full up now. Going to see if I can last another 24 hours. If I can do that then I can do anything :D

Original Post by rampantbunnylove:

Liora, I used to do the Horlicks / hot chocolate thing before bed every night too!

Cadburys and Horlicks both have light versions with less than 40 calories per mug and I swear to god they both taste as good as the regular thing. If only they were the same price :(

Hehe, last night I had the calories so I gave myself the good stuff -- 120 calorie packet including teeny marshmallows!  YUM!

Okay, I need someone to kick my butt into gear.  You know how you have trigger foods, right?  Mine are always candy, and I'll get obsessed with a certain candy for months on end, and then just switch randomly to another one (for a while I could eat thousands of calories worth of swedish fish at a time, then ice cream, then starbursts, then dove chocolates, etc.).  Right now, mine is peanut M&Ms.  It's been peanut M&Ms for about a month.  I can literally consume 3000 calories (2 big bags) in one sitting, and keep going until my stomach aches.  I keep bags at home, in random drawers, partly so I won't see them in the kitchen, and partly because I'm embarrassed.

Well,  I tell you all this because...I am almost out of my last bag right now, and I have to stop at the grocery store on the way home from work for something else...and all of a sudden I am obsessed with how many bags of peanut M&Ms to get and when I will eat them.  Ugh, writing that all out makes me feel like there's something crazy or wrong with me :(  I sound like I"m addicted to them.  I don't know what to do!  It's almost like I NEED to binge on them or something and I'm planning it out...HELP :(

Hello everyone! How was your day? Mine has been good so far. Except I've been kind of hungry today which is probably since I only ate 1400 calories yesterday. I've convinced myself to up it to 1600 today. I went jogging this morning and did an ab workout already, so that's it for the day. I've got an urge to do a little dancing though. :) haha.

Welcome silver26! Everyone here is great and so supporting. You'll love it.

Hey Jolie, don't give up! It's always the hardest to get through the first day, but after that it's smooth sailing.

Liora & Sharon good job on binge-free day # 2! Today should be my day number 2 also.

Great job on binge free day number 5 Creedy!

Oh, and good job on binge free day number one Rampantbunnylove.

okay, so basically good job everyone! haha, well I will report back later.

Thursday is always a high calorie day for me.  Not because I plan it that way but because on Thursdays we have hot lunch at school (pizza, subs, chicken sandwich, etc.) and I tutor at my church so we have lots of variety and tons of good yummy hot stuff (last week it was meatloaf, coleslaw, potatoes, grapes, you can see how I went a little overboard (1000 calorie dinner does not equal a little...) and this week it was pasta with breadsticks and salad, and there's always DESSERT).  Since I went so overboard last week I decided to try something different today and make sure that I wasn't ever really hungry, especially around dinner, because last week, even when I got full to the point of pain, I still had an unbelievable urge to gobble up everything in sight.  So this week I made sure to eat at 8:00 (my usual breakfast time), 9:30 (my usual snack time), 11:30 (my pre-lunch), 12:00 (lunch), and a big snack at 3:00 to stem off uncontrollable hunger urges.  It definently worked.  I could control myself better at dinner and although I ate too much chocolate pudding and a little too much pasta, I didn't go wacko overboard.  This is my brand new plan.  If I could control not going crazy for dinner and still being full now (8:17) so I don't feel the urge to snack, my plan for next Thursday is to even stay around 1400-my daily goal.  This is my new plan for all days because I always feel super-hungry right before dinner.  Since I eat what my parents are eating I think that I have to save lots of calorie room for dinner, but then I end up snacking before and after because I'm not maintaining my hunger level, I'm letting it teter-totter up and down.  If I'm not uber hungry for dinner, I won't eat way too much and need to save the calorie room!  This is my lightbulb moment.  Hopefully this works out and my bulb doesn't burn out.  Does this sound smart to anyone else?

Today:

Breakfast -Meijer brand Special K (Essential M), it tastes better than Special K.

Snack -Pea Pods

Snack -Nectarine

Lunch -2 slices Hungry Howies Pizza

Snack -2 slices Wasa Crispbread with 1 Laughing Cow cheese wedge

Dinner -1.5 servings pasta with marinara sauce, one breadstick with no butter, 2 servings salad with 2 tablespoons french dressing, 4 meatballs, and chocolate pudding

 

The day will end up being about 1700 calories.  Not TOO bad.

Daily Goal: 1400

Daily Burn: 1890 w/ no excersize

Lo siento para el libro! 

Hello everyone! I had a good day today. I ended up dancing around my room for 40 minutes, and I worked up a pretty good sweat. Now my legs are all sore. Haha, but it was fun! Now I'm really tired, and I'm gonna go to bed soon. Good luck everyone!

Binge free days: 2

kae, it sounds like you're doing GREAT!  Congrats!!

snoekem, how is your "plan" going?  It sounds like it could be working for you!  Keep updating :)

I'm about to go to bed, and I did really well today (even with a bump in dinner plans, suddenly going out instead of cooking)...but I'm STARVING.  I did buy the candy :(  I don't know what's wrong with me!

 

Hi everyone

I have just come across this forum - and I can't tell you how great it is to suddenly not feel so alone!

When I used to hear people talk about how they had a 'binge' I would get my hopes up in thinking that they were like me - only to find that by 'binge', they meant a couple of chocolate bars, or muffins or something.

Reading all of your posts - I'd first like to say that you guys are doing really well, both with your binge free days and also talking and being honest about it! I can fully identify with the loss of will power, and extreme excessive consumption. For me, when I lose control it's almost like a desperation. I have a particular thing in mind (such as M&Ms, or cookies & cream ice cream) and I HAVE to have it. I would just hate to think how many calories I can consume in one day in a really bad binge...

Well anyway, this is something that I feel that I have tried everything to stop and I just haven't been able to. I normally only get to about 3, maybe 4 days in a row of no binging. And then it's like I click out of control again.

I had a MAJOR binge yesterday, and so I'm really looking forward to participating in this forum and hope that it helps - and maybe help others in the process too.

So, hello everyone! Look forward to talking with you

Kelly

day 90! :) keep having MAJOR binge cravings but water is my best friend at the moment...

keep up the good work everyone!

Yay, danasings!  What a healthy attitude...I feel so comforted by you guys too :)

Kelly, it's awesome that you're here!  I, too, was SO happy to find that there are other relatively "normal" people like me, whose binges aren't 5 cookies instead of two, but the actual eat-until-I-might-throw-up binges that I have.  I have felt so alone, and I definitely don't anymore.  

yyonah...so impressed!  Any tips? :-P

I finally fell asleep last night even though I was really hungry...but then I wasn't hungry when I woke up this morning (weird)...AND I'm down to 128!!  YAY!  Weekends are my nemesis though...and I have all that chocolate...

I binged again last night, but managed to keep it down to 2 small chocolate bars and a piece of cake. Unfortunately I then purged it all up afterwards even though including them in my cal count would only have put me 200 cals over.

I tried approaching my mother about my binge eating yesterday and told her about the episodes that I had, and how I'd really appreciate it if she kept snacks around the house that are low cal enough for me to binge on, but not make me instantly want to purge. She told me I should just eat fruit. Fruit. Fruit does nothing to cure my need for bad food when I have an episode, especially when I know that there's a whole cupboard in this house full of horrible chocolate, biscuits, cake, chocolate eggs etc. I tried to explain but she didn't seem to care... It's so frustrating because she herself is a compulsive eater, and obese even though she has a gastric band!!!! Arghhh, and she's still passing on her unhealthy eating habits to my younger brother and sister even though I've tried to say something about it!!!! I wonder that if as a child she hadn't tried making a point through me about my sister's weight by allowing me to have second, and even third helpings of dessert, and all the sugary snacks I wanted I'd have these episodes.

Sorry for that vent but I had to get it off my chest, because I am so angry and frustrated right now. I can't wait to get back to my Uni house.

 

God yyonah, I couldn't ever imagine going that long! Keep up the awesome work!

Good luck with it kelsmi01, it's nice to know that you aren't alone with this, and there are always people to talk about it with :)

Danasings, four days is a good start! Set yourself and see if you can go five, or even six days this time!

Original Post by rampantbunnylove:

Sorry for that vent but I had to get it off my chest, because I am so angry and frustrated right now. I can't wait to get back to my Uni house.

That's what we're here for!  It sounds like a really frustrating situation.  It's SO brave of you to tell your mom exactly what's going on with you -- I'm just sorry you didn't get the ideal response.  But it sounds like you are on the road to healthy.  I'm sorry you purged, hon.  I always feel horrible for that later (and horrible because I know what it does to my body).  Just keep on trying!  I can offer my listening (or reading, I guess) skills :)

For me, usually the weekend is my "cheat time" (bad idea I know), but that usually means 5000+ cal days (ugh, sometimes 5000+ cal binges), which literally ruins a week's worth of progress once I look at the average on the analysis tool.  SO, this weekend is going to be DIFFERENT.  Saturday night I'm going to dinner at one of my FAVORITE restaurants, and that is my cheat meal.  Easter isn't that hard for me; even though we're going to family's for dinner, I don't usually enjoy the uber-soaked-in-lard dishes available anyway, so I figure I'll use a lot of my calories indulging in a few glasses of wine ;)

Sorry, I feel like if I write that here instead of just thinking it in my head, then I have to be committed to it because I'll want to report back.  So while I'm at it, I promise to go to the gym tomorrow too.  Keep me accountable!  You are all so great :)

Post #300! woo hoo!

Great job Yyonah!

It's only 2:45 here, so not the end of the day yet. I feel confident that I'll make it through though. I honestly feel like it's been a week since I last binge, but it's only been almost 3 days. Anyways, I went running this morning, and I plan on doing some ab workouts and weight lifting, maybe some dancing. But my calves are pretty sore. :(. They suck. haha.

Well, with Easter coming up, I'm getting nervous. I'm really hoping I have enough willpower to not completely devour my whole Easter basket. I'm 15, and I have a feeling my mom's getting me one this year. She bought this purple(my fave color) basket at the store, and I was like "what's this mom?" and she was like "nothing, nothing" and was trying to shove it down in the bag. haha. But I feel if I can make it through this Sunday, I'll be able to make it through Tuesday(typical binge day) and while I'm at my grandfather's house for the week.

Anyways, I've procrastinating with school, so maybe I should go do some. Have a great day everyone!