Motivation

Hi everyone.

I'm a very healthy eater from day to day. VERY healthy. And I'm quite proud of my diet and my will power. I eat whole grains, lean meats, fruits and vegetables and low fat dairy products. I also eat portions of nuts and drink lots of water.

But I have a problem. I'm in university, and tend to go out to the bars on the weekends every now and then. Now, I can deal with a night of drinking, because I can control how much I drink and I dont drink really hefty sugary drinks. My problem is my loss of will power to junk food when I drink. I eat so much... SO MUCH chocolate when I'm drunk! So much that sometimes I feel ill the next day, but of course, I get back on track and dont drop my calories the next day because I know it's unhealthy recoil.

After this rant, I propose creating this group to support and track / log how many days myself and any others interested in joining can go binge free. I still dont mind having small portions of chocolate throughout the day because they might be just 5g portions. I just want to be able to motivate myself to stay on track and not destroy my healthy diet every weekend.

So, I'm going to start out. Since I went all out last night, today is...

Days without bingeing: 1 (I know the whole day hasnt gone by, but I know I'll control it today haha)

Thanks! 

LOL

this woulda been Day 10. :  )

back to the old drawing board, eh?

everyone have a good one!

Day One.

86 days (:

im still getting urges even now!

I could just scream!!  This weekend was AWFUL.  I think I must eat when I'm comforted/need to be comforted...I'm really unhappy at my job, and Sundays are by far my hardest day not to binge because I just want to make myself feel better.  In short, I haven't logged it yet, but I'm guessing Sat. was about 3500 calories total, and yesterday I ate and ate and ate until I felt sick and almost threw up (not on purpose -- out of sheer sickness).  My bet is about 6000 for yesterday.  Now, today, I just FEEL disgusting and want to crawl back into bed and cry.  Sundays and Mondays are always so hard for me, guys.  Monday mornings remind me that my relationship with food and my body is definitely not normal -- I feel like I can feel handfuls and handfuls of fat where they didn't exist before and generally just so huge and unattractive.  Sorry, guys, I just don't know what to do -- about the food, about my job, about any of it.  I feel so crappy right now :(

yyonah, I assume you are in maintenance, right?

liora...believe it or not...this is when you get your momentum for change. reread what you wrote. your life can take a new direction. you can get control on all that you're feeling. change takes time but you can do it.

don't be afraid of therapy...it helps a lot of people get control AND find direction. keep posting liora...

Last night I managed to restrain myself once my friends went home and instead of ordering a whole pizza for me to eat on my lonesome I had a scoop of Nutella and went to bed! I'm so proud of myself :D

Anddd I'm off to the gym later today for about 2 hours! Woopwoop.

Congrats, rampantbunnylove!  That's awesome!  I think that a lot of the time, stopping a binge feels even better than not having an urge at all (this isn't to say that I don't look forward to the day when I get as few urges as possible :-P).  You didn't give in!

Sharonclaire, thanks again for your support.  You had almost 10 days, wow!  Way to be healthy and just start over...it'll be longer this time!  How's everyone else doing, especially after the weekend?

I'm feeling a little better...resisted the urge to eat nothing this morning to compensate, although I have been eating light given that I still feel a little bloated and sick from yesterday.  I haven't been able to get to the gym since Thursday, and won't be able to until tomorrow, but I think I will feel better when I get some activity in.  Speaking of which, maybe I'll get up out of my desk and take a quick walk around the building in a few minutes.  

Oh, and I LOVE therapy!  Recommend it to anyone and everyone! :)

liora, thank YOU for the support. I am TRYING to get back on it!!! Have to kick my butt a little here!!! I love therapy, too! I am really excited, actually, thanks for asking! I am starting on this new career path and really suited to it so whenever I connect w/folks in the field I get a positive response. I am used to crisis...not used to things working out. THAT is why I am doing the freak-out eating spasms this time around. Whenever I feel ANYTHING I gotta eat! You're right, I will figure it out...it must be getting better, right?!!

Take care.

Thanks for the support =)

sharonclaire- 9 days?!? Thats a pretty long amount of time so obviously you can do it when you put your mind to it, and rampantbunny- that is pretty awesome

I made it 7 days, and my new short term goal is 14.. wish me luck

Binge free days: 2 and counting

Today is DAY 4!!!  I'm so excited.  I even made it over the weekend which is usually my worst part of the week.  Even though I ate over my goal of 1400, 1900 on Saturday and 1500 on Sunday, I didn't go over maintenence (1900)  YIPPEE!!!  This makes me feel so much more confident.  I can get through this weekend too, and the next, and the next...

I'm sending out my confidence rays...

 

feel them?

So thats whats its called, bingeing? Thats when you eat excessively nonstop right? Wow thats my problem right there, i gained over 15 pounds in a year by eating so much junk food. Now its only months away from summer and im at my highest, im 5'3 and im 115 lbs. That may not seem that much but im 17 yrs old and Ive been telling myself not to overeat so much. Im going to start counting my days i havent binged tomorrow since i did it today already haha

thanks jolie. I'll start day one tomorrow. :  ) Everyone have a good lowcal night!!!

no, no, no, no. I did it again tonight. :(. Uh, and I was almost on day 6. I think I'm starting to get worried though. We are going to  my grandparents house on March 28th through April 2nd, and then I'm going to my best friends house for 2 days. At my grandparents house, my grandmother cooks so unhealthy; it's horrible. I gained 10 pounds by staying at their house for 2 months. Then I always eat like a pig with my best friend. I'm scared I'm going to gain my weight back. I have no self control. And tomorrow I was supposed to go clothes shopping, but I don't think I'll be able to do that because I'll be bloated. This sucks. Sorry everyone. Good luck with your no binging challenges.

I'm so glad there are people out here with my same problem. I felt so alone. My problem is that I snack CONSTANTLY. When I am making dinner, I snack until I am no longer hungry for dinner but I eat it anyway. I am always full and almost forget what feeling hungry feels like. My sister is bulimic and is not doing well at all. I am so afraid that I am going to fall into this. I just want to have will power!!! So I am starting NOW!!! As of tomorrow morning, it will be day 1 of no binging!

sharonclaire - no, im not in maintenance, im recovering from anorexia and im trying to gain but i had a period when i first upped my calories of NON STOP! mega binges and it was making me gain so much i relapsed then binged gained and relapsed and so on.....

im now getting healthy the correct way :)!, but even after 87 days!!! im still having mega urges to binge the whole kitchen down so i tend to go sit with family, have a hot cuppa and a large glass of water then do something to distract myself (like play pac man on the X-box!) its hard to go munch and make food when your hands are occupied and theres others in the room.

yyonah, glad to hear you are working to gain! thanks for the ideas for avoiding binges! I've read it can take a couple of years to know that you are not going to revert to old habits! stay with it, yyonah, you are doing great and setting an example for the rest of us! Now I know this can be done.

schmamah, snack healthy and eventually the constant snacking will subside...celery/carrots/all veggies fine...fruit? If you can do it, try making yourself sit down whenever you snack. The trick is that when you eat you have to focus on what you are eating...be very conscious of what you are eating. I think if you promise yourself that you won't eat/snack unless you are seated, you'll see improvement. good luck.

kae, instead of worrying in advance, imagine yourself visiting and in control of your eating. This isn't about self control. Personal relationships bring up a lot of emotions. You want to face the emotions instead of feeding them! It's really hard to change these habits. But, they are doable. They are just habits. Do your best w/this...each visit will get better! (go ahead and eat grandma's cooking!...it's only a few days! you don't have to eat everything). Take walking breaks, if possible...get out and get fresh air or do something to distract yourself.

I dropped the kids off and could have gone straight over to mcd's for coffee...yeah, right! like that's all I would have gotten. so, instead, I decided I'd get the dog and go for a hike. So, I passed one hurdle but this is still day stinkin one. :  )

thanks for the confidence rays, snoekem. lol

to the teenagers: some of you may need more calories...teenagers need a lot...could some of the bingeing you all do be due to not getting enough important nutrients in your diets? if your body is not being fed HEALTHY it will want to eat through everything in order to get what it needs. I hope you all are finding out more about nutrition, too! take care all.

yyonah, it sounds like you are doing fabulously!  Take sharonclaire's advice, and congrats!

kae, I can definitely relate, and I wish I had some words of wisdom for you!  Will you be able to help with the cooking at all (and perhaps sneak some butter out of the veggies, etc.? :-P)?  Make sure you are drinking a TON of water while you are there, and there's nothing wrong with letting yourself eat a little more and being on maintenance for a couple days if it helps you from all-out bingeing.  Will you be able to get on CC for support?

Me, I'm not so good :(  I've gained weight now (and weigh more than I have in the past year and a half!), and I feel generally bloated and icky.  Maybe today can be day 1 again?  :(

Hi guys,

thanks so much for your support, and supporting everyone else in the group. I love the amount of community support we have here, its absolutely fantastic.

So as I said last, for St. Patty's on saturday is didnt binge, just didnt eat amazingly. Yesterdat was basically the second St. Patricks Day (of course, people were celebrating both days) so we went out again. Didnt binge, but ate badly, and probably overate a bit.

So with that, I think I'm going to do another  fresh start today.

I'll update later :)

thanks again everyone!

Argh. I've had to move back in with my family for three weeks over Easter. There's something about this house that makes me think about food non-stop. What's making the situation harder is that:

1. I have to sit around the house all day so I can get all my coursework done before the end of the holiday.
2. I pretty much have no friends left here anymore, and therefore nothing to keep me distracted.
3. The only local gym charges £5 for a card letting you go there, £25 for the induction and £6.95 each time you attend... I can't even afford to go! I'd go running / cycling but the weather around here atm is seriously grotty.

Anyway, I just ate almost half a jar o peanut butter. Over 1000 calories wasted right there. I don't know how to stop myself :(

Hi everyone!

I'm new to this forum, but it seems like an excellent way to support eachother and I definitely have difficulties binging--only with sweets.  Instead of having a sweet tooth, I must admit that I have a mouth full of sweet teeth. But I am sick of being controlled by this addiction!  Everytime I try to give up sweets, I can usually do it, but then I get bored, and start eating them a little, and then it just is a downward slope and I'm back to buying packs of cookie dough (the refridgerated toll house kind) and eating them in a day.  By myself.  Without actually even needing to make any cookies.  *sigh*. So maybe if I keep track in here, I can actually stick to it.  My goal is to eliminate sweets completely for three days, then see where I'm at from there.  (I can't say forever, it freaks me out).  Hopefully I'll be able to reincorporate them into my diet without binging. I am so impressed by all of the people on here that make it weeks and months without binging, good job everyone! Sorry for the rant. :)

Days without sweets: 1

Days without binging: 1