Health & Support

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

hello     llo      llo           lo.

Wow, where is everyone. It's so empty in here, it echos.

I haven't been in here for awhile.  First off, we've had major flood & my dsl was out for awhile.  Secondly, I have been off the wagon or rather "on the floor" crawling around & eating everything.  Got bored & depressed.  However, I have been able to continue my walking 30 min. everynight & that always helps mentally & physically.

I have just read the post for the past 2 pages, & we have several new people.  Welcome to you all.  I can sympathize with so many of your problems - we all have in common, this monster on our backs. My emotions are my downfall.  I want to eat sugar when I am depressed, bored, angry, etc.  However, it is good that I am now aware of that.  Somedays I can steer it in another direction, somedays I cannot.  I am doing better, and I just try to be more positive & not let food lead me around.  I think just being aware of why we are eating is a major positive. Like when you get mad & suddenly realize you are stuffing something into your face & not even really aware that you are eating at all.  I am really trying to NOT do that anymore. Taking just one day at a time.

Good luck to you all with your day.  Holding hands.

I like that visualizations jmmrm, we can all link arms and make a strong chain like in Red Rover, Red Rover so the food cravings won't be able to break it!

I'm still here guys - I just slept most of the weekend.  I took the advice and just tried to eat whatever I felt like this weekend.  Had a corn dog at the fair (BIG mistake, major indigestion), a few bites of a funnel cake and a small hot fudge sundae.

I still am not keeping down a lot of what I'm eating but I'm retaining a lot of fluids at the same time - a little weird.  I'm trying to add in some higher calorie foods that I normally save for "treat" days to boost the calorie intake.  I was having some mild heart palpitations today and realized that no matter what I have to force myself to eat.

I'm waiting for this little respite from the binge eating to be over and the monster will rear its ugly head.  Stress test on Thursday.  My final neuro appointment next Wednesday.  That should put a cap on all the current neurosis!

3`weeks binge free.  I can feel the burn right now.  I wanna drive to T-Bell and order everything, get stoned, and stuff my face.  I also haven't smoked which is fine because I only did it because food tasted better and I could eat more.  I know for me it's about relaxation. In any case, I will be good and not run to T-bell.  I really freaked when I realized I had full on binge eating disorder and I want so bad to be able to eat food and not stress about it.  I had pizza last night and I had fried calamari the night before.  I'm still logging everything, but I really am trying to not get hung up on the numbers.  I think for us the first challange is to just eat normal meals with people.  I used to starve myself so I could binge privately.  Now I'm just trying to eat what I want around my boyfriend and family.  Another thing I'm doing is if it doesn't taste good, I stop eating it.  How many of us keep mindlessly eat things even when it isn't apealing?  Anyways, thats where I'm at.  Good luck ladies.  Be strong, and be good to yourself.  Fight the little battles.

The urge to eat is finally coming back - now I have to fight the binge monster again!  I have noticed that when I increase certain ones of my medications I have a greater urge to eat and eat sugary sweet foods.  I'm trying to find a balance here.  I also got a new scale which is giving me a different weight than my old one (of course, it's a HIGHER wait by about three pounds.)  I decided WTF and just logged in the higher number.  Still, it's discouraging.

I made my daughter watch and episode of Intervention with me the other night where they were showing very graphic images of a bulemic and talking about the medical risks of binge eating (and more specifically, purging afterward.)  She has been doing very well for the past two years but now that she is in ballet I am constantly afraid that she will start having signs of an eating disorder again.  Did I mention that she's only 11?????

wow jenne that's some scary stuff for anyone, but she's already had problems and she's 11?

I am gonna have a bit of a tough time tonight. My husband will be at work until 10:00 and I will be home alone. My worst time is when I am alone. It's so easy to let yourself eat a ton because there's no one there to see it! I am gonna be good. I am, I am not gonna eat junk until I'm sick. AT ALL.

I can relate with you Jenne, I am on a medication to help with my migraines, actually I am on two medications now for migraines and both of them have side effects  *** may cause increase craving for sweets****  that's all I need. Ecspecially when my binge food is Oreo cookies!!  My worst time is just like Kalkette, when I am alone. The kids are in bed, my husband is across at the neighbor's house, I have that down time. And on top of all that.....it's right before bed. No time to burn off what I just inhaled at the fridge. It's so horrible. I am the worst right before my monthly cycle. I seem to have no control. Then I feel so freakin' guilty for it afterwards. It usually is the worst for 5 days, then I can gain control again. I just try to work out extra hard at the gym to make up for all the extra calories taken in. I take each day as it comes and pray every night before I go to sleep, please let me take better control of this problem so I wont have to suffer later for it.

The way I'm feeling this afternoon I'm just thankful that yesterday's grocery shopping trip came after hubby was diagnosed with type II diabetes.  If I want to binge it will have to be on sugar free fudgesicles....LOL

My daughter was seeing an eating disorder counselor at 9 b/c my @$$ of an ex-husband told her she was fat.  This was also during the time he kidnapped them during visitation.  She started bingeing and purging and hiding food, sneaking outside to eat, the whole nine yards.  Any idea how hard it is to find a counselor for a child that young - even in a major city????  We caught it early and she is much better now but she still has a propensity toward bingeing and we have to try very hard to keep her focus on health rather than weight.  Although I try very hard to hide my own behavior from her, I'm sure it doesn't help.

During my childhood is when I first started bingeing, but I never purged. I am an emotional eater. But I can remember being around her age, and taking food out of the pantry when my parents were not home and hiding it in my room for a later time when I felt I needed to feed some emotional void. It can start at a very early age. You are doing the right thing by getting her help now. She will love you so much for it later. She may not show much appreciation for it now, but she will when she becomes an adult and has children of her own and feels the love we have for our children, and how you will do anything for them to keep them from hurting themselves. 

United. I so wish this could be fixed with a magic wand. That would make it so much easier. With that we could fix our weight too.

I saw your post about your bad few days. I'm sorry. It's tough, but you can pick yourself up again. You have done it before. We will be here to help you. Come back to the non-bingeing side of the street. It's more fun over here.

I had a bad weekend plus Monday.  During the weekend, my folks came for a visit, so my mother was cooking, cooking, cooking!  I was actually relieved not to have to cook myself!  I never totally out-and-out binged--the hide myself kind.  I, instead, gave myself large portions of food at meals and snacked often.  On Monday, I was stressed and exhausted because of a long and aggravating day at work.  I am ashamed and frustrated with my behavior.  I had done so well for so long!  Probably one of my longest stints--that?s something to be proud of!

I?m starting again!  I?ve been here before!  Stay with me!

I?ve read all your posts!  Keep trying--it?s what we have to do!  I?m right here with all of you!

whoa, wait whose handing out magic wands? Ill take 12!

anyways.. on day 3 binge free. feeling alot better It always gets easier after day 3 I find.

c'mon everyone! youre all doing so good. we can do this!! <3

i'm still sliding downhill, crawling around on the floor, feeling sorry for myself.  sounds like some of you are struggling as i am, so at best i don't feel so all alone.

however, it is so helpful to read all your post.  i feel connected to so many of you.  and i can understand exactly what you are saying.

please send a magic wand my way too!

Binged, mad, frustrated, disgusted......

good news is that now that I'm losing weight my binges are smaller b/c my stomach gets full faster......

back on the wagon, starting over with day 1

United, I so agree with you. I so can't afford to pay someone to talk to and I don't think I would be comfortable with that anyway. I think us being here to support each other and help each other is doing all of us a wonderful amount of good. Yeah, we still all have a hard time once in awhile, but now we know to get back up and start again. Only not from the very beginning. Just from where we left off. I look at it like this. If I set down my knitting for a few days, that doesn't mean I have to pull it all out and start over when I pick it up again. I get to pick it up from where I left off and continue on the pattern. That's how life is too. Pick up where you left off and continue.

We can all do this, I know we can. We can be here for each other and do a great job. I had a minor issue last night. Not a full on binge, but bad enough that I am calling today day 1. I am dusting off and coming back. I will succeed. We all will.