Health & Support

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

Oh yes I can!! I think the stomach can be extended, that it is elastic. I don't know what causes binging, I think it is different for everyone... I also eat as fast as I can to get rid of the food, silly! If there is something fatty or that I don't want to be tempted by, I'll eat it as fast as I can so it desapear!

Good morning. I have been feeling discouraged and so Wednesday night I sat down and wrote out some goals for myself. I was really good about it all day and had some great looking percentages yesterday and then I went over to a friend's house. The trouble with this is that I sit with a group of guys who do not watch what they eat so they have cookies and chips and other junk food. I did better than i usually do. I ate two pretzels that we had brought and then I drank my water. I didn't have any soda the whole night. The cookies were my downfall though. I had 7 chocolate chip cookies. Yes, seven. They were kinda small and I'm not sure of the calories in them, I will look it up, but I am so ashamed of myself. If I had eaten like two or maybe three I would still have probably been okay, but seven is ridiculous. There was no reason why I needed that many! I am putting it past me and starting over again today. I will improve and I will succeed!

Hello people!!  So I still haven't binged.  I guess I'm at 2 weeks and 4 days.  It feels good and the urge is going away.  I find wed and mon. are the 2 days that are hard.  I actually have just started telling my boyfriend and when I get the urge I call him and tell him.  He's very supportive and I guess distracts me so I don't.  Also I have shame around it, so by taling about it, it's not hidden anymore.  As I've said before, my binging is very secretive.  So by talking about it, I've removed that very important element.  However I have had a few tough momments, like when I ordered shrimp fajitas at Chevy's and found out the next day when I logged that they had 1300 cal not including the tortillas!!!  I felt so crappy.  What is bad is I thought "I could have had a good size binge for that damn meal."  I think total with the fajitas, margaritas, and chips I must have been at 2500 cal at least.  I knew I was doing a bad thing, I just didn't know that bad.  Anyways, I just keep plugging along and taking each day as a new day!

Keep with it eveyone.  I know how hard it is.  Be honest about your struggles with the people you love.  It really does help! 

You go girl! It's not that bad! Good spirit is the first goal, then, little by little, you'll do it!

I'm actualy a "phenomenon" among my friends. I'm the one who have no bottom, who can eat HUGE amount of food. I HATE that!

Ugh me too. I can eat way more than my husband and everyone else I know. Right now I am fighting the urge to order pizza. I am tired of hearing people say "well sure you can have pizza, just have a SMALL portion" I just know that if I order a pizza, I will eat the whole thing. I've been doing really well for the last month or so, which makes me think that there might be some "trigger" foods that I should just avoid entirely...It's funny that I never feel like bingeing on protein, only carbs...chips, cereal, bread, cake, pizza, cookies, etc.... There is something about sugar and carbs that just turn me into a wild beast. We need to treat this like an addiction I think...find out why we binge, when we binge, and on what we like to binge...and then work on avoiding those factors. Maybe taking the one day at a time approach is what we should do.

I'm going on two weeks binge free.  I woke up at 11:30 last night and wanted chocolate so bad I could cry.  Fortunately, there wasn't any in the house so I had a whole grain granola bar and went back to bed. 

I'm mentally psyching myself up for this weekend.  We're going to the fair tomorrow and I LOVE FAIR FOOD!!!!!  I have been budgeting for a funnel cake which is really my absolute favorite.  I usually end up sharing one with the kids, so it's not that horrible.

I'm a little concerned because I seem to be swinging wildly in the opposite direction of my bingeing.  I'm probably not taking in more than 600 calories a day, give or take.  I'm trying to eat more but I'm so nauseous and stressed that my stomach won't tolerate much.  I don't want to go into starvation mode and more importantly, I don't want to trigger a huge binge from not taking in enough food.  Any suggestions?  I'm taking my stomach medicine and it's not helping.  I've tried oatmeal and bananas and granola bars which seem to stay down okay better than most stuff.

jenne, it's great to hear that you aren't bingeing but it seems like you are heading into the other dangerous territory of undereating. When I am sick I usually  let myself eat whatever I am craving because otherwise I don't eat anything or very little. We used to have these things at Burger King for breakfast that they don't have any more that were like tater tots with cheese mixed in and they were called cheesy tots. I loved them with a passion and one day last winter I was so sick and I made hubby go buy me two orders of cheesy tots and a large soda and that's all I ate until dinner. (Horrible I know) but the way I see it, it's better at times like that to eat foods you know you want and will therefore eat so your body can have strength to get better, than to not eat anything and be miserable and sick for longer and feel like crud because you're craving and won't let yourself have it.

It's up to you what you personally should do, that's just my two cents. Stick it out. We will be here for you.

Hi - My name is Katy and I am a binger, too.

Until I found C-C, I never knew there were other people like me out there!  I actually have a stash of treats in my lingerie drawer and I binge out on them in the evenings.  What is up with that????I know that I am sabotaging myself but I can't help it - I am actually telling myself to stop, but keep on doing it.  I am sabotaging myself and making myself sick but how do I stop?

Hi Katy,

Nice to meet you.  I don't usually post in here but i think you're right on the money you know....saying that you sabotage yourself by bingeing. 

I can relate to self sabotage....it's like i'm afraid to let myself be a success.  I guess i feel guilty if i have things that others don't have.  I'm also afraid of success....when everything's going really well i get scared that something bad must be about to happen.  Or that people won't like me if i'm too successful (the green eyed monster.....)  I'm going to investigate the idea of self sabotage both personally and the theory behind it.  I'll share anything worthwhile.

I'm really glad you posted about self sabotage, it's been a light bulb moment for me.  Thanks very much.

Narelle

hi, i binge once or twice every week lately (on friday/saturday/sunday)... and i don't know what to do.  It's really nice to know that i'm not alone.  I feel like no one i know can really unerstand what it's like to eat, like, 3500 cal of food in a sitting, and be thinking "stop" all along.  I've come to the point that i hate food.  i don't know what to do.  Three years ago, I started counting calories obsessively meaning to maintain my weight and dropped unhealthy food from my diet. I didn't have serious mental anorexia, but my weight dropped 20 lbs and i lost my period for a year.  On doctor's orders i gained weight back until i got my period at 135 lbs.  I gained the weight really quickly. In two years I became an excercise buff, but often overate out of anxiety and never realized that, as a tall girl, i was thin at 135/140.  I gained about 5 more pounds.  Now I'm still really into excerise and have a good amount of muscle, but this summer i gained 10 lbs more (and I know it's because i ate so much)  I just want this to stop! if i ever say that i want to lose weight, or want to eat healthy no one seems to understand... they just keep offering me poptarts and whatever and saying "c'mon, what's it gonna hurt?" It's gonna hurt me, because I can't stop eating when i want to!! HELP! please... thankyou

(sorry bout the life story) i'd really appreciate your thoughts on this

Welcome aboard, ydoidothis. The first step is honesty with ourselves about what we're eating. :)

I did it. I stopped myself from binging tonight. I don't know how. I got to 1,777 calories, and I said no more. It was hard. So today is my 7th binge-free day!

Phew.

Congrats Lizzle!  Woo hoo :)

i binge all the time. almost always on healthy foods, though. which i guess is better than binging on ice cream or candy or chips, but on the other hand, i feel guilty and i don't "get" to eat those "cheat" foods. instead, i binge on "safe" foods that meet my nutritional standards. for instance, tonight after getting home from dinner i ate a la tortilla factory tortilla (the big, 80-cal ones). mind you, i wasn't hungry, but i wanted one and it would only put me a few cals over, so i had one. then, when i was done. i had another one. then, another one after that. then, i ripped one in half and decided to have just one half more. like hell that worked.  now i feel like crap. my day wasn't that great to begin with, but then i just ate a bunch of stuff that -although not bad for me in moderation- i didn't need and wasn't hungry for. i just ate it like a machine. i hate it when i do things like that. i feel so powerless. i'm also recovering from bulimia and one of the reasons i think i binge on "safe" foods is because they're nutritious and i ususally don't feel like its worth it to purge them. i guess that's a good thing, but i still end up binging and feeling awful. i'm so worried i'll gain weight. still for the day i ate about 10 calories below maintainence according to the site, but i always think this site overestimates my calorie needs.
ack! does anybody else binge on healthy things? can anybody make me feel better? is there anything i can do ther than drink a lot of water? :(
i'm down in the dumps

this is day 2 of no bingeing and i'm soooo dizzy. what's up with that? yesterday i had about 1250 cals and today, before dinner, i've had like 850. i feel horrible and weak and dizzy. does anyone know why? is my body just used to an abundance of food and now that it has a normal amount it's freaking out?

ok Ive been binging. all last weekend. then all through the week some almost binges (eating more than I should, but not outrageously). on Thursday I got sick with a bad flu... then yesterday as I thought I was getting better, you betcha, I binged. Still feeling the flu today but Im resetting my diet anyway.
So here goes... day 1.

Tinytot, I dont know why youre dizzy. Are you eating all good foods? and making sure you get all the right nutrients? I dunno... but I hope youre feeling better now

Liz, I binge on healthy foods alot, usually toast. I can have like 6 slices if I dont stop myself. I wish I had some advice, but I dont. I struggle with this too =(

AAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I binged tonight. GOSH DARN IT! So frustrating. I'm going to blame it on the trip to the winery. At least I didn't hit up the drive-through, even though I was tempted.

Jeez.

I am so frustrated right now...I binged, like whoa, last night

It totalled 8 chocolate chip cookies and 3 bowls of crunchy nut (by kellog's and the MOST AMAZING cereal ever...which is why I ate so much)  So that was like.....700 cals, at 11:30 at night!  And I was already above for the day I think.

The problem is, I know exactly why I did it - comfort food.  I'm on exchange in London, and I'm really not enjoying it.  I've made plenty of aquaintences, but no real friends, and all I want is to go home and see some familiar faces.  Eating just eased the pain a little bit....and I know it'll just happen again on the next lonely/boring night....

Well, it's Monday morning, how is everyone doing? I am doing okay. I was very careful this weekend and I must have done okay because I was down a pound this morning. I had a big binge trigger when hubby and I had an argument on Saturday. Usually this means I go nuts and eat waaaay too much because I'm feeling yucky about myself. Not this time! I was really good. I even ate healthier foods this weekend. Feeling good. How is everyone else doing?