you need to go to the psychologist ASAP.

feeling MISERABLE at a BMI of 20, is just well, insane. sorry to put it so bluntly, but it's just insane.

Can we NOT talk this way about our fellow members?  I agree that 5'8" 140 is a great and healthy weight to be at for lighterrose, I personally think that 125 is very much too low -- particularly for a 14 year old.  However, a BMI of 18.9 is perfectly acceptable. 

I agree that professional help is needed -- but minimizing her by saying what she feels is insane, does ABSOLUTELY nothing to fix the problem.

Kiera -- you are not fat.  And I suspect that if you lost the 15 pounds tomorrow, you would still desire to lose more weight.  You have been on the boards long enough to know how to eat healthily -- and how to lose a little more weight if you need to.  You need to learn to love yourself, love your body -- when you start doing that, you are far more likely to lose some more weight, than you by beating yourself up.

Take a deep breath, write yourself out an eating plan for tomorrow (a healthy eating plan), and stick with it.  Then tomorrow night, before you go to bed, write out another plan for the day after tomorrow.  Do this each night -- don't let what happened during the day affect your plans for the next. Doesn't matter if you binged -- the next day is all that counts.

If you eat a reasonable number of calories (at least 1500) throughout the day/evening, not only will you lose weight, but you will find yourself less likely to binge, and less likely to try to starve yourself.

 and for a reminder:

• Promotion of starvation diets or habits that exhibit signs of an eating disorder ("pro-ana", "pro-mia", etc.) is prohibited.

keira your disordered thoughts have not gotten any better than the last time i spoke to you (6 months ago). we can't really help you. you need a psychologist.

&when i said insane i didnt mean that she was insane, i meant thinking that that is fat is whats insane. i was not attacking her by any means. i have spoken to keira before and she knows that my intentions towards her are not ill.

try to work on repairing your metabolism. start eating normally for a bit. 2,000, sedentary. do that for a month or so. then start having2,200 with 30 minutes of exercise for another month. then after those 2 months excercize(cardio) for 30 minutes while eating 1800.

youll gain weight at first. then it slowly decline. try it.

yea. then youll lose it.

i dont really think your helping her. in fact, if i were her i'd probably feel worse.

if its any consolation, your weight of 140 lbs is actually my goal weight, i'm 5'9, i'm currently 190, down from 217.

if u really want something bad, u do what you need to do to get it.

I don't believe losing weight to 125 will help you like like your body any more than you do now. You've been thin before and even then you weren't content. I've been there, I've had the illusions of my life being perfect if I reached a number and with every day I continued placing so much importance on weight I felt fatter and more depressed.

The first step to fixing this is repairing your metabolism. 2500 calories a day, and do some weight training which will give you tone. I know that you already feel terrible about your body and don't want to gain more, but yo-yoing will cause more weight gain in the longterm than increasing your calories now. I promise if you do this in a few months you'll feel much better and won't become overweight.

When you starve your mind you feel dreadful and nothing is worth that.. when people look at you, they won't think "omg she's not a size 2 anymore." Most people are too preoccupied with themselves to care and if people comment then that's just a reflection of their own insecurities.

after reading your responses to everyone here, I'm sure you can handle me saying that there is no magic wand to make you happy. only you can eat healthy and change your life. if you're too stubborn to take anyone's advice, and if you have a depressing pessimistic answer for everything that everyone's saying, then please stop posting for attention. obviously, there's nothing more that they can do besides giving you helpful advice, which you won't take.

Perhaps instead of just looking at dieting and losing weight you should look at exercising and toning up. Pilates and Yoga along with some cardio will help you to tone up with long lean muscles. You are at a very healthy weight and if you just add like 30 minutes of exercise a few times week you will start toning up.

I agree with vytagechick. why dont you focus on eating lean proteins and multigrains while doing toning exercises. Pilates are a good suggestion (vyntagechick) and if you incorporate a little cardio (20-30 mins) your body composition can totally reverse and you can look, feel and be strong and toned. You just have to eat enough and eat the right foods! Try a pilates DVD for some exercises or sign up for a class. Good luck.

You're right, there is something wrong with you. Mentally. Please talk to someone about your problem. You shouldn't feel this way at a healthy weight and at such a young age. Seek help.